A couple days ago, I made the choice to euthanize my beloved Princess Jasmine. She had been living with chronic kidney disease for a few years, along with associated complications including several UTIs, a blood infection, acid reflux, constipation, etc. But those things never got her down; she was always excited to face the day every morning and had animated conversations with me, even when she didn't have the strength to walk or the will to eat. She wanted to fight, so I fought too, even when the vets didn't think she would make it, and even when the vet bills dipped into my grocery budget and left me living off spaghetti and oatmeal.
But one day, she stopped fighting. I'm sure whatever problem she had was something treatable, like another UTI. But PJ lost her spark. She wasn't excited to face the day anymore. She was quiet, and avoided eye contact with me. She was almost 19 years old, her weight was down to just 4.4lbs (her healthy weight was only 7lbs, but it was still a big difference for her), and her kidney values had been rising rapidly over the last few months, so I knew that treating her illness would just delay her death rather than prolonging her life. She made it clear to me that she was done, so I let her go.
I did what I could to make her last day positive. I bought all her favorite junk foods (fancy feast, friskies, meow Mix, whiskas), gave her cheese, bacon, fried chicken, and spent the whole day just snuggling and eating tasty food together. Then I had a vet come to our home. I chose a different vet that PJ had never met, because she loves meeting new people, and sure enough she was perked up and excited when he arrived, despite barely moving at all throughout the day.
The euthanasia happened much faster than I expected once the injection was given, which really threw me off, but overall I was happy with the way things turned out for my baby. I have no regrets about the euthanasia, even though it crushed me to lose her, but now that I'm stuck figuring out what to do with all her old things I feel lost.
The days without PJ have been rough. My entire daily routine has been disrupted, and I realize now that I used to talk to PJ more than I talk to my roommates, so the house feels quiet and lonely even when everyone is home. I feel like I don't know how to live without a cat, and I'm hesitant to get rid of all my cat stuff in case I end up finding a new feline friend. Would it be a mistake to hold on to some things? What things would even be appropriate to donate? I feel like a lot of used things wouldn't be very good for donation, but I also feel like throwing things in the trash would be like throwing away part of PJ's life. Would I be doing an injustice to a new cat, bringing it into a house where there has already been an established routine with a different cat? I wouldn't try to fit a new cat into the void left by PJ, but I know it would take time for everyone to adjust and I wouldn't want a new cat to feel like it's failing to meet our expectations...am I over-thinking this??
Also, I have no idea what to do with the big stash of subcutaneous fluids I still have. I thought about selling it on Kijiji or the like, but that doesn't seem like a place people would be looking for medical supplies. I have almost 200 needles, 20 bags of lactated ringers solution along with IV administration sets, and IV pole to go along with it. I really want it to go towards helping another pet, and would happily give it away for free to someone who needs it, but I just don't know how to connect with such people. Any suggestions? (Or, if any forum users here happen to live in the Edmonton area and are in need of these supplies, feel free to PM me)
But one day, she stopped fighting. I'm sure whatever problem she had was something treatable, like another UTI. But PJ lost her spark. She wasn't excited to face the day anymore. She was quiet, and avoided eye contact with me. She was almost 19 years old, her weight was down to just 4.4lbs (her healthy weight was only 7lbs, but it was still a big difference for her), and her kidney values had been rising rapidly over the last few months, so I knew that treating her illness would just delay her death rather than prolonging her life. She made it clear to me that she was done, so I let her go.
I did what I could to make her last day positive. I bought all her favorite junk foods (fancy feast, friskies, meow Mix, whiskas), gave her cheese, bacon, fried chicken, and spent the whole day just snuggling and eating tasty food together. Then I had a vet come to our home. I chose a different vet that PJ had never met, because she loves meeting new people, and sure enough she was perked up and excited when he arrived, despite barely moving at all throughout the day.
The euthanasia happened much faster than I expected once the injection was given, which really threw me off, but overall I was happy with the way things turned out for my baby. I have no regrets about the euthanasia, even though it crushed me to lose her, but now that I'm stuck figuring out what to do with all her old things I feel lost.
The days without PJ have been rough. My entire daily routine has been disrupted, and I realize now that I used to talk to PJ more than I talk to my roommates, so the house feels quiet and lonely even when everyone is home. I feel like I don't know how to live without a cat, and I'm hesitant to get rid of all my cat stuff in case I end up finding a new feline friend. Would it be a mistake to hold on to some things? What things would even be appropriate to donate? I feel like a lot of used things wouldn't be very good for donation, but I also feel like throwing things in the trash would be like throwing away part of PJ's life. Would I be doing an injustice to a new cat, bringing it into a house where there has already been an established routine with a different cat? I wouldn't try to fit a new cat into the void left by PJ, but I know it would take time for everyone to adjust and I wouldn't want a new cat to feel like it's failing to meet our expectations...am I over-thinking this??
Also, I have no idea what to do with the big stash of subcutaneous fluids I still have. I thought about selling it on Kijiji or the like, but that doesn't seem like a place people would be looking for medical supplies. I have almost 200 needles, 20 bags of lactated ringers solution along with IV administration sets, and IV pole to go along with it. I really want it to go towards helping another pet, and would happily give it away for free to someone who needs it, but I just don't know how to connect with such people. Any suggestions? (Or, if any forum users here happen to live in the Edmonton area and are in need of these supplies, feel free to PM me)