And what a pain in the butt it has been turning out to be. I am in a relationship with “Mr. Roboto†as I like to call him. An emotionless, nice guy who doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t have a romantic bone in his body. I have been here for 2 years and have heard “I love you†from him maybe 4 times, twice because I was complaining about it.
I am bored in this relationship. I have never been the crazy type but since I get so little attention from him I find I am causing all sorts of unnecessary drama. Two nights ago he came home 1 hour late without calling, I havenâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t spoken (first time i spoke to him was this morning) or slept in the same room with him since then, and to be honest I couldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t care less he was late. I have NEVER EVER been dramatic in a relationship, and I find it sad itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s the only way to get attention from him. I do everything for this guy, my world revolves around him. I think I deserve a lot more than just a “good friend†and an awkward “I love you†twice a year.
My family is now going through drama. My Dad doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want my dog moving in and my Sister doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want my cats due to URI (which is funny because I own HALF her house…).They both gave me stupid options. My Dad said I could move in and give all my animals to my sister and get them back in 1.5 years when my sister gives me money for the house. My sister said I can give her my dog (for 1.5 years), convince my Dad to take my cats only. My Mom got back to both of them and said they have two days to give me better options or they will feel her wrath (God bless Mothers! LOL).
I need to discuss with my boss the possibility of transferring to Toronto (thankfully we have an office there). The odds are 50/50 but I am going to tell him I am willing to do anything to stay… I donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want to have to look for another job with all of this going on.
Yesterday I spent all day in bed crying. I came home from work at 11AM because I was so stressed. I cried in bed until about 4PM when Mom called me and yelled at me for not going out and moping around. I cried so much my pillow was soaked… good thing it was on the bed my boyfriend sleeps in and not mine haha. I took my Moms advice and went to go see the new Ben Stiller Museum movie… it as very cute and I felt better.
I called in sick today as I look like crap and I have started packing. I decided I am going to start getting ready to leave. I am sure anyone who has broken up understands what I am about to say. I keep hoping in the back of mind that my boyfriend will come rushing in and tell me how much he needs me and loves me begging me not to go thatâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s all it will take for me to stay… but I will bet every single one of you that wonâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t happen. He has no emotional trait to him, he will probably just sit there and watch me go.
I have given him the option to pick from the animals. I know he wants Bruno, but he will be a bachelor who works overtime a lot and doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t have time. I explained to him today Bruno will be better with me because wherever I go there will be at least two other people in house. He will be walked everyday (my boyfriend has never walked him) my Mom and my sister are home all day so wherever I go he will not need to be crated often. I will be sad if he picks any of the animals. It wonâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t be Capone because Capone is mine. If he picks Bugsy or Bonnie or both I will be devastated, but I cant be so selfish to take them all.
Anyway, sorry so long. Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s been a rough 2 days, I suspect itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s about to get worse.
I am bored in this relationship. I have never been the crazy type but since I get so little attention from him I find I am causing all sorts of unnecessary drama. Two nights ago he came home 1 hour late without calling, I havenâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t spoken (first time i spoke to him was this morning) or slept in the same room with him since then, and to be honest I couldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t care less he was late. I have NEVER EVER been dramatic in a relationship, and I find it sad itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s the only way to get attention from him. I do everything for this guy, my world revolves around him. I think I deserve a lot more than just a “good friend†and an awkward “I love you†twice a year.
My family is now going through drama. My Dad doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want my dog moving in and my Sister doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want my cats due to URI (which is funny because I own HALF her house…).They both gave me stupid options. My Dad said I could move in and give all my animals to my sister and get them back in 1.5 years when my sister gives me money for the house. My sister said I can give her my dog (for 1.5 years), convince my Dad to take my cats only. My Mom got back to both of them and said they have two days to give me better options or they will feel her wrath (God bless Mothers! LOL).
I need to discuss with my boss the possibility of transferring to Toronto (thankfully we have an office there). The odds are 50/50 but I am going to tell him I am willing to do anything to stay… I donâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t want to have to look for another job with all of this going on.
Yesterday I spent all day in bed crying. I came home from work at 11AM because I was so stressed. I cried in bed until about 4PM when Mom called me and yelled at me for not going out and moping around. I cried so much my pillow was soaked… good thing it was on the bed my boyfriend sleeps in and not mine haha. I took my Moms advice and went to go see the new Ben Stiller Museum movie… it as very cute and I felt better.
I called in sick today as I look like crap and I have started packing. I decided I am going to start getting ready to leave. I am sure anyone who has broken up understands what I am about to say. I keep hoping in the back of mind that my boyfriend will come rushing in and tell me how much he needs me and loves me begging me not to go thatâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s all it will take for me to stay… but I will bet every single one of you that wonâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t happen. He has no emotional trait to him, he will probably just sit there and watch me go.
I have given him the option to pick from the animals. I know he wants Bruno, but he will be a bachelor who works overtime a lot and doesnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t have time. I explained to him today Bruno will be better with me because wherever I go there will be at least two other people in house. He will be walked everyday (my boyfriend has never walked him) my Mom and my sister are home all day so wherever I go he will not need to be crated often. I will be sad if he picks any of the animals. It wonâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t be Capone because Capone is mine. If he picks Bugsy or Bonnie or both I will be devastated, but I cant be so selfish to take them all.
Anyway, sorry so long. Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s been a rough 2 days, I suspect itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s about to get worse.