I got a letter in the mail yesterday.
I've been having (sorry for TMI) problems.
Blood in my urine for the last 4 years. Abdominal pain, that is normal for me, and loosing weight. (I thought weight loss was due to change in diet). After lots of bladder infection tests, each coming back negative, and being treated for a bladder infection, one dr finally did something different. She sent my urine in to be tested for abnormal cells.
The letter I got scared the living Krap out of me, made all the arguments over politics moot in my mind, who cares really? Everyone go vote for what you believe. That is all I have to say about that.
In the letter it said "A few papillary urothelial cell clusters seen and low grade urothelial malignancy cannot be ruled out" I know it isn't sayin I HAVE cancer. BUT... it scares me. My mom passed from cancer 9.12.01. WHY did I have to read malignancy in a letter about myself NOW? I was already emotional about loosing my sister (9.11.02) and my mom at this time. I know I have a more positive chance of NOT being ill at this point. I just cant stop crying, and fearing, and that isn't helping me any. I just need some positivity. I need some encouragement. I fear telling my family, it would cause unneeded worry and stress with them at this point. It is easier to tell aquantinces and strangers because they don't have an emotional involvement with me.
I am scared. I need to call my Dr. on Monday morning to get this thing figured out. I am STRONGLY URGED to seek out a uroogist for further evaluation. I was told that 2 years ago leaving the hospital for a bowel obstruction. I went to Lamedeer (my people's reservation) and I have been having regular check ups and tests done through them. No matter how slim that chances are for this being bad, or becoming bad, I am having a really hard time refocusing on the positive. My hubby has herniated disc in his neck and cannot work. I have scoliosis and spondylosis, and diagnosed with sprained back and neck, from an injury in May. It hasn't healed, and it may be worse then I think. Neither one of us are working right now because of our backs andnecks. I am just stressed, then our one vehicle stopped starting. Those things are all i can think about at this moment, and I am trying so so so hard to find something positive to think about instead. Maybe you wonderful people here can help me refocus. I don't want to be negative.
On the positive side, my nephew born at 24weeks is home and doing very well. He is on oxygen, because his lungs aren't working quite right. But out of everything that could have been wrong, and there are no signs of all the other things, just the lungs, I am very very very thankful and happy about that. He is now 6 monthhs, almost 7 months old now.
Thank you
Be safe.
I've been having (sorry for TMI) problems.
Blood in my urine for the last 4 years. Abdominal pain, that is normal for me, and loosing weight. (I thought weight loss was due to change in diet). After lots of bladder infection tests, each coming back negative, and being treated for a bladder infection, one dr finally did something different. She sent my urine in to be tested for abnormal cells.
The letter I got scared the living Krap out of me, made all the arguments over politics moot in my mind, who cares really? Everyone go vote for what you believe. That is all I have to say about that.
In the letter it said "A few papillary urothelial cell clusters seen and low grade urothelial malignancy cannot be ruled out" I know it isn't sayin I HAVE cancer. BUT... it scares me. My mom passed from cancer 9.12.01. WHY did I have to read malignancy in a letter about myself NOW? I was already emotional about loosing my sister (9.11.02) and my mom at this time. I know I have a more positive chance of NOT being ill at this point. I just cant stop crying, and fearing, and that isn't helping me any. I just need some positivity. I need some encouragement. I fear telling my family, it would cause unneeded worry and stress with them at this point. It is easier to tell aquantinces and strangers because they don't have an emotional involvement with me.
I am scared. I need to call my Dr. on Monday morning to get this thing figured out. I am STRONGLY URGED to seek out a uroogist for further evaluation. I was told that 2 years ago leaving the hospital for a bowel obstruction. I went to Lamedeer (my people's reservation) and I have been having regular check ups and tests done through them. No matter how slim that chances are for this being bad, or becoming bad, I am having a really hard time refocusing on the positive. My hubby has herniated disc in his neck and cannot work. I have scoliosis and spondylosis, and diagnosed with sprained back and neck, from an injury in May. It hasn't healed, and it may be worse then I think. Neither one of us are working right now because of our backs andnecks. I am just stressed, then our one vehicle stopped starting. Those things are all i can think about at this moment, and I am trying so so so hard to find something positive to think about instead. Maybe you wonderful people here can help me refocus. I don't want to be negative.
On the positive side, my nephew born at 24weeks is home and doing very well. He is on oxygen, because his lungs aren't working quite right. But out of everything that could have been wrong, and there are no signs of all the other things, just the lungs, I am very very very thankful and happy about that. He is now 6 monthhs, almost 7 months old now.
Thank you
Be safe.