For those of you who remember me
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So, I know I haven't been online for a long time... And I really regret it because this site is awesome. Well, I'm kinda back now. I've been in and out of the hospital, and now I'm in a state-of-the-art headache program/clinic in a private 5-star hospital in Chicago (gotta love insurance at times like this! There's no way in he** that I'd be able to afford this without it, definitely different than hospitals in Wisconsin
lol). For those of you who know me still I'm sure you remember me complaining all the time about my headaches. Well, it got to the point where I couldn't take it anymore (I couldn't be on the meds I was on forever, it's not safe). Luckily I'm able to bring my laptop, so I'm still able to stay in touch with everyone.
It's not fun here. I guess the point of this email is to get as many as possible to make this less crappy and not as painful. I mean, just for instance yesterday morning they put in the first PICC line of my life. I won't explain what it is, because it's very graphic and I don't want anyone passing out lol, but those of u who do know what that is (I know there's some nurses and medical people on this site, so you'll know what I'm going through). They have finally stopped the drugs that were making me feel pretty sick (DHE). But I'm having issues sleeping, and since I'm not on my pain meds at this moment (they're kinda like "detoxing" me off of them) my headaches are back full-power. But it's a pretty cool place, I mean people come from all over the world to be in their program. Just a little tidbit- I don't know if any of you have ever heard of the migraine medication called Imitrex, but if you have, well, it was created here. And from what I heard it was a HUGE stepping stone in the treatment of headaches around the world.
The worst part is that I feel very alone here. I don't feel like leaving my room much, I don't feel like doing much, and I'm not exactly next door to my parents in downtown Chicago lol.
Actually that isn't the worst part lol. My doctor here said that the normal stay for a person in the inpatient unit is 5-7 days, but I will be here at least 10 days, probably more. Which means I don't get to see my cats for a very very long time, I don't get to see my boyfriend for a long time, no friends, na-da. And I just started school again, and just like in the past, just as school starts I end up going into the hospital. So I'm probably going to have to drop out of classes again and be put on academic suspension for the 4th time (I always appeal and get probation). But still, it doesn't look good on my records.
Just lookin' for some to help me here. I'm on the verge of tears every moment I'm awake, both from pain and from all the emotions that are going through me at this point. I never thought I was this sick, but apparently I am. Or at least I feel it. Like, I'd never thought that I'd need a PICC line, but now I have one. I just wanna go home. I know I'm here for a reason, but I don't think I can handle this. (see, even just writing that I'm starting to cry- what a great adult I make lol! I've been crying like a baby since I got here lol)
So, I know I haven't been online for a long time... And I really regret it because this site is awesome. Well, I'm kinda back now. I've been in and out of the hospital, and now I'm in a state-of-the-art headache program/clinic in a private 5-star hospital in Chicago (gotta love insurance at times like this! There's no way in he** that I'd be able to afford this without it, definitely different than hospitals in Wisconsin
It's not fun here. I guess the point of this email is to get as many as possible to make this less crappy and not as painful. I mean, just for instance yesterday morning they put in the first PICC line of my life. I won't explain what it is, because it's very graphic and I don't want anyone passing out lol, but those of u who do know what that is (I know there's some nurses and medical people on this site, so you'll know what I'm going through). They have finally stopped the drugs that were making me feel pretty sick (DHE). But I'm having issues sleeping, and since I'm not on my pain meds at this moment (they're kinda like "detoxing" me off of them) my headaches are back full-power. But it's a pretty cool place, I mean people come from all over the world to be in their program. Just a little tidbit- I don't know if any of you have ever heard of the migraine medication called Imitrex, but if you have, well, it was created here. And from what I heard it was a HUGE stepping stone in the treatment of headaches around the world.
The worst part is that I feel very alone here. I don't feel like leaving my room much, I don't feel like doing much, and I'm not exactly next door to my parents in downtown Chicago lol.
Actually that isn't the worst part lol. My doctor here said that the normal stay for a person in the inpatient unit is 5-7 days, but I will be here at least 10 days, probably more. Which means I don't get to see my cats for a very very long time, I don't get to see my boyfriend for a long time, no friends, na-da. And I just started school again, and just like in the past, just as school starts I end up going into the hospital. So I'm probably going to have to drop out of classes again and be put on academic suspension for the 4th time (I always appeal and get probation). But still, it doesn't look good on my records.
Just lookin' for some to help me here. I'm on the verge of tears every moment I'm awake, both from pain and from all the emotions that are going through me at this point. I never thought I was this sick, but apparently I am. Or at least I feel it. Like, I'd never thought that I'd need a PICC line, but now I have one. I just wanna go home. I know I'm here for a reason, but I don't think I can handle this. (see, even just writing that I'm starting to cry- what a great adult I make lol! I've been crying like a baby since I got here lol)