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Happy 13th Birthday Mew!! I Miss You Every Day Still

Discussion in 'Crossing the Bridge' started by jenniator, Oct 10, 2018.

  1. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    Happy birthday Mew, my sweet boy. Mew would've been 13 years old today, so I wanted to create a post to celebrate his memory. I adopted Mew from a rescue organization when he was only 2 months. I was only 12 years old at the time. Unfortunately something happened to his mother since he and his siblings were alone without her returning. When I first saw him meowing at me through the cage, I knew right away that he was meant to be with me. Mew was the sweetest and kindest cat. He always had so much energy and loved talking non stop. Mew always had so much love to give and I loved him with all my heart. I owe so much to that cat. He literally saved my life. Growing up, I had a rough upbringing with a alcoholic mother and a father abandoned us at a young age. So I was pretty much alone and going through so much my whole life. If it wasn't for Mew and my husband (boyfriend at the time), I wouldn't be here today. Knowing that he depended on me and needed me to protect him is what made me not give up. I still remember when I was only 12 and I was crying, that he would always comfort and lay with me. He always listened when ever I needed someone to talk too and he was always there. He's been gone for 2 months and it's still extremely hard without him in my life. I miss him following me through the house every where I go, meowing non stop, and just always being with me. It hurts so much and I feel like he was taken away too soon, before his time. He was always super healthy, had so much energy, and would never stop moving. Even at almost 13 years old, he never slowed down except for the last month. If it wasn't for the cancer, I feel like he would've easily made it way passed 20 years old. When I moved from California to the Netherlands 5 years ago, there was no doubt in my mind that he would be coming with us. I would never leave him behind.

    I know that we made the right decision to put him to sleep because he was in so much pain and his cancer was extremely aggressive. A part of my mind is always tormenting me like what if I took him to the vet sooner?, what if I realized something was wrong quicker? Or even did I give up on him too soon, should I have fought harder? I know it wouldn't have made a difference since the cancer he had was too aggressive and nothing could have prevented it, but I just can't help thinking what I could've done differently to save him. I remember when I heard he had a tumor, I was worried, but I thought maybe they could remove it with surgery and he would be alright. When I heard he first had cancer, I started crying uncontrollably and I fell apart instantly. It was my worst fear happening. A part of me wishes that we would've done chemotherapy so we could have had him with us a little longer. But even with the chemotherapy, he would have only have made it another 6-9 months at most. It wouldn't have been fair to put him through all of that just so I could have him with me a little longer. At that point it was almost a month later when we found everything out. He was so weak, barely moving, and he couldn't eat on his own for a few weeks. I did everything I could to save him and I really wish I could've done more. He knew it was his time and that he was ready to pass on, I could see that he was only holding on for me. On his last night, he came and slept on the end of the bed like he did every night. At that point, he hadn't slept on the bed with us in over 3 weeks, so I'm thankful to have that last memory of him. On his last morning, I syringe fed him because he was so underweight and I wanted to make sure he wasn't starving. I wanted him to be as comfortable as possible before he had to go. We spend the rest of the afternoon with him on the balcony and I made sure he knew how much we loved him. Letting him go was the hardest decision I ever made and I remember wishing I could tell our vet to stop when she gave him the injection first to sleep. I know in my heart that we did the right thing, but I still miss my baby every day. The only thing that brings me a little comfort is that he's not in pain anymore and that he was loved so much his entire life. I appreciate Mew always being there for me when I needed him the most and loving me unconditionally. I could never forget him. To honor Mew's memory, we had a custom made urn created that looks just like him for his ashes. Having that done really made feel a bit happier.

    Since the day Mew passed away, I fell into a huge depression, had no energy/motivation to do anything, any task became too much, and I was crying non stop. I was in a pretty bad place. I'm home most of the day while my husband works, so I was extremely lonely and depressed most of the day, especially since Mew was always with me. I felt like my heart was crushed into pieces. Mew was the only cat I had, so it was really difficult losing him. I really missed having a companion and someone that was always with me especially during the day. I know everyone grieves at a different pace, but I knew that it would be good for me to try and open my heart for another animal.

    Me and my husband weren't ready to open our heart up to another cat yet since just seeing a cat made me almost burst into tears. So we decided to open up our heart to a dog. 3 weeks ago, we adopted a 8 month old puppy (Blond/white German Shepherd mix) that we named Cody from a shelter in Spain. Poor Cody was in he shelter his whole life. He was adopted once, but his owner gave him back again shortly after. So I knew that Cody really needed us and I felt like he was right for our family. When we first saw him at the airport and on the ride home, Cody instantly bonded with us. I think he was waiting for us to find and rescue him. Since Cody lived in a shelter most of his life and it was in the middle of no where, he's absolutely terrified of everything outside including people, sound, and other dogs. But we've been working with him every day and he's slowly getting better. He's also enrolled in some doggy courses so he's getting exposed to more people and dogs. He's already doing a lot better than 3 weeks ago and we love him so much. I never had a dog before, so it's been a new and exciting experience. Having Cody around has helped so much with the pain of losing Mew and I feel like I'm finally starting to heal a little bit. There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about Mew or miss him. It's still so difficult, but I'm sure that Mew would be proud of us for rescuing another animal and opening up our hearts again. Mew will always be in my heart and I will always miss him.

    I also wanted to give a huge thanks to The cat site and everyone here. I joined 5 years ago and I learned so much since then! I really appreciate everyone always being so helpful, supportive, and kind. It was thanks to you guys that I was able to learn that cat food brands like Meow Mix and Whiskas were horrible foods. Everyone was always so patient and took the time to explain everything to me. My knowledge about cat's and cat nutrition has increased so much. Because of all you guys, I was able to give Mew better food and give him the best quality of life possible during his last couple years. Thank you guys so much for everything.

    The last picture is one of my favorites since it's a picture of Mew when he was younger. He would always steal hair ties and Q-tips. I caught him red handed with a fresh pile of Q-tips in his food bowl and I absolutely love his guilty/caught expression!
     

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  2. les26

    les26 Sylvester's daddy Super Cat

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    What a bittersweet story, so touching, Mew was a wonderful cat and friend and companion, but you did everything right, when they get sick we always think we should be able to save them and fix them whatever the issue is, but we sometimes can't. But you gave him a WONDERFUL LIFE and he thanks you for it, you saved him and he saved you, and now you are doing the same with little Cody, but Mew will forever be in your heart and memory and his spirit is still with you and he is happy, happy that you are loving another animal in need.

    Happy Birthday Mew, I hope you have a great one.....:rbheart:
     
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  3. mazie

    mazie TCS Member Top Cat

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    I agree with everything les 26 said above, I like the way he expressed himself. So glad you are healing, what a blessing for both you and Cody to have found one another. Life has so many twists and turns with our journeys, but always has a way of working out if we remain positive and open. :). So much would now like to see pictures of your boy, Cody!!:D, and please keep us updated on the new adventure you, Cody and of course your husband are on.:thumbsup:
     
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  4. LisaT.

    LisaT. TCS Member Adult Cat

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    jenniator, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Mew was absolutely adorable. RIP sweet kitty.
    I'm so glad for you that you and your husband got Cody! :)
     

  5. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    Mew really was a wonderful cat and the best companion. Your absolutely right, that we always want to help our babies when they get sick and make everything better again. I really did give him the best life that I could've and he was always so happy. It really is amazing how I rescued him, but he ended up also saving me. I also believe that his spirit is still with us and that he's watching over us. I'm so happy that we were also able to give Cody a new life. :)
     
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  6. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    It feels nice to finally heal a little bit especially after being depressed for so long. After Mew passed, I never thought I could let another pet into my heart or life. But I really do feel like I was meant to have animals in my life and it's wonderful giving them a second chance as well. Life really does have a lot of twist and turns, but I'm trying to stay positive :D I attached some photo's of Cody. He is such a sweet heart and he already loves us so much! Thank you so much for all your kind words!
     
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  7. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    Thank you so much :) Mew was adorable and he knew it ha ha. He always loved getting compliments from people and getting attention. We are also happy to have been able to rescue Cody and give him a loving home. It's funny because he's learning how to be a dog. When he first came home, he was terrified of treats, bones, and toys! Now he absolutely loves everything.
     
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  8. mazie

    mazie TCS Member Top Cat

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    Awww, what a cutie he is!!;) I wish you all many years of joy, togetherness, and of course the fun mischief that always seems to find its way into our lives when we have fur babies. LOL:crazy::wink:
     

  9. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    He really is a cutie! It's funny because his mother as a German Sheppard and they aren't sure what the father was, but I don't think he resembles a German Sheppard too much ha ha. Thank you so much! Cody is really mischief and he loves getting into trouble. I always seem to attract the mischief and crazy one's which is funny! :D But lucky he's a sweet heart!
     

  10. di and bob

    di and bob TCS Member Top Cat

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    Mew would be the last one to want to bring sadness to your life. Just as you would want for him if you were the first to go, so he wants for you. The bond you have with that sweet boy will always be with you, nothing can take it away. "Death cannot take that which never dies", and your love for each other never, ever will. He is a part of your soul, and though he no longer walks this earth, his new path will forever parallel your own. Send him thoughts of happiness and of finding joy in living, it will bring peace and joy to his heart.
    His last days were full of pain and existing, he needs to know you are opening your heart to love once again, his legacy is fulfilled for he taught you the true meaning of love. Try not to dwell on the end, it brings nothing but pain and heartache, it elevates it above the importance of his life, which was infinitely more important and meaningful. Let the good memories bring you comfort, and know he will always be near, as near as your thoughts and prayers.....Take care, I'll pray for you all, and ask that you be blessed for giving that sweet boy, and the new one such a wonderful life! .....RIP beautiful Mew. You will never be forgotten, you will forever have a secure place in a loving heart. May the good Lord bless and keep you, until you meet again!
     
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  11. Mamanyt1953

    Mamanyt1953 Rules my home with an iron paw Staff Member Forum Helper

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    Rest you gentle, Mew, dream you deep. Your pawprints are on your mama's heart forever.

    Love does not die, you know it simply changes form and continues on, still Love. Mew is with you still, and rejoicing that you have honored his memory by opening your heart to another creature in need.
     

  12. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    Thank you so much for your kind words, I really appreciate how thoughtful you are :) Your right that Mew wouldn't want me to be sad and that our bond/love will never die. That is beautiful. He really did teach me the true meaning of love and how to open up my heart. So it's wonderful that I can bring another creature into my life to show him just as much love as Mew gave me. It is important to remember him during the good times and I'm thankful to have those memories :)
     

  13. jenniator

    jenniator Thread Starter TCS Member Adult Cat

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    That is beautiful, thank you so much :) His pawprints will forever be on my heart and I know that one day, we will meet again.
     

  14. solomonar

    solomonar TCS Member Alpha Cat

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    One upon a time, the Wise Man went out from the Dark Forest , into the Dessert Land, for he knew clear mountain forest springs are for the body while the Dessert is for the Soul.

    Far into the Land of Sand, under the torrid Sun, he encountered the small Dessert Cat, laying beneath a bush.

    Wise Man said: "Who are you?" "I am the Dessert Cat and because I am a Cat, I know everything", feline answered. The Wise Man sat near the Cat and asked why is she so sad. "My kitty is hungry and since there is no game around, I have ho milk to feed her and nothing and I know her End is approaching".

    "Do you know what Love is?" asked the Wise Man and the Cat said No. Then the Wise Man took his knife and cut his finger, feeding his blood to the kitty. The Man suffered, because he could not stop the wound pain.

    "Now is my turn!" The Cat stood up on four paws and started purring. Second after second, the purr healed the wound and stopped the pain. Then the Wise Man blinked slowly and resumed his path onto the Dessert.

    Since those times of old, Cat purr to heal and please humans and when Cat breath their last purr on Earth, they look straight into the man's eyes to rebound their Soul to the Wise Man Soul, for ever end ever.
     
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  15. NovaLove

    NovaLove TCS Member Kitten

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    I lost my baby Nova a week ago to cancer that came out of nowhere and took his life just days after we found out. I still can’t believe how fast it completely destroyed him and I too am struggling with feelings of guilt and deep remorse over what I could have done or should have done that could have saved him. Mainly that I didn’t spot it sooner when I thought I was so attentive to his every move. I guess it’s a common theme when we grieve...

    It’s lovely to see that you’ve been able to rescue your pup and have a new friend. It gives me hope that maybe one day this depression will end and I can make room in my heart for another animal. Hope you have many years of love with Cody and that the memories of mew will soon be replaced with happy ones of all your times together instead of sadness over the loss.
     

  16. NovaLove

    NovaLove TCS Member Kitten

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    Oh and where did you get that beautiful urn made? Was it a local shop or online?
     

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