It's just a couple of weeks until the anniversary of my beloved oldest cat's death. It's really hard. I think about him every day, anyway, but right now it feels like going through the loss all over again.
I guess we can hope that after the anniversary date passes, we'll be able to remember the happy years again, rather than the hard last days.Originally Posted by tab
sadly i fully understand how you are feeling. it will be a year on the 6th October since my precious boy was taken from me. i'm finding that the memories which had become happier are now returning to those dark days that led up to his passing.
it's the sick, skinny, blind, scared creature he became that i see now. not the cuddly, eccentric, happy boy that he was.
those words are so true but i guess the first anniversary is when you relive the last few weeks/days/minutes so strongly.Originally Posted by Graciecat
For months everytime I thought of her all I saw was the way she looked the last few days of her life.
Then I realized she only looked that way for a few short days and for the other (much to short) 7 years of her life that she was a big, beautiful orange and white girl and that's what I needed to remember.
Thanks. The news these days is very distracting so that takes my mind partly off it for a while. There's still a ways to go before the actual anniversary date (Oct. 9). I'm a little worried I may burst into tears at work that day.Originally Posted by tab
those words are so true but i guess the first anniversary is when you relive the last few weeks/days/minutes so strongly.
i'm struggling to put those memories out of my mind.
brokenheart, i hope you're coping. it is a horrible time.
Thank you right back. It's good to have a place to talk about it.Originally Posted by tab
i had to take milo to the vet yesterday for his booster and even that had a deeper significance as this time last year it was my beloved janet that i was in and out of the vets with. thankfully milo was given a clean bill of health.
i too am questioning my decisions regarding letting my boy go and i know in hindsight i should have let him go sooner.
i guess we will always feel a bit like that but i wish i could have let him know that i was trying so hard to help him. i failed him badly and that haunts me.
thanks for letting me share this with you brokenheart, i'm worried that i'm mentioning him too much in other parts of the forum.
roll on the end of October.
Thank you. And I'm sorry for your boy, too -- I know how it gets very intense again around the anniversary.Originally Posted by tab
it was a year yesterday for me brokenheart. i had all these ideas of posting my boy's story on here, but i just couldn't.
i fully understand what a difficult time this is for you too and my thoughts are with you.