I just feel so yucky today.
Not only has my applied professor decided to lighten her load (leaving me with a much younger and less experienced teacher), not only did I get "randomly" stuck in what appears on paper to be a less prestigious studio class group, but now, I'm no longer in the top ensemble. Not because I didn't audition into the top 6 (I did), but because they decided to only take 4 people. Now, I'm back in the group with the other undergrads, including freshmen and non-majors.
I just feel like my school is flipping me the bird. I've gotten vibes recently that the two people in charge of these decisions don't like me that much...or at least not AS much as they like some of their favorites (favoritism is a rampant by-product of being in any kind of a conservatory)...I dont know. I just feel like I'm being ignored and that I'll never get the contacts I need to make a career out of this. I'm very sad.
And I can't even get Raphael hugs since he's in for a dental today, which just adds to my stress and worry
Not only has my applied professor decided to lighten her load (leaving me with a much younger and less experienced teacher), not only did I get "randomly" stuck in what appears on paper to be a less prestigious studio class group, but now, I'm no longer in the top ensemble. Not because I didn't audition into the top 6 (I did), but because they decided to only take 4 people. Now, I'm back in the group with the other undergrads, including freshmen and non-majors.
I just feel like my school is flipping me the bird. I've gotten vibes recently that the two people in charge of these decisions don't like me that much...or at least not AS much as they like some of their favorites (favoritism is a rampant by-product of being in any kind of a conservatory)...I dont know. I just feel like I'm being ignored and that I'll never get the contacts I need to make a career out of this. I'm very sad.
And I can't even get Raphael hugs since he's in for a dental today, which just adds to my stress and worry