I think that the last two days were the days I was feeling the best since I started on this nightmare of depression.
I commited the mortal sin of splitting the Zoloft pills, understanding that the massive experimental 50 mg dose was killing me more than getting me better (I was on the edge before I started to take them, but after that I almost tried to commit suicide). Since then, I haven't been feeling with panic attacks, nor stress, nor heavily depressed. I feel great!
Tomorrow I will talk to the doctor.... although when I tell him what I did I won't be surprised if he lowers the dose to 25 mg (after the tongue lashing of been tinkering with the dose without telling him
).
I feel I still have a long way to go... I am far from good... too far (I am still very depressed)
. But compared to where I was a while ago.... there's a difference between heaven to earth. But at least I have the willpower to get through on with it.
Vicky had told me a few days ago "You are too arrogant, and proud of yourself and have too big an ego to give up. You either get better or die trying". I am applying the philosophy.
Keep ya posted guys
I commited the mortal sin of splitting the Zoloft pills, understanding that the massive experimental 50 mg dose was killing me more than getting me better (I was on the edge before I started to take them, but after that I almost tried to commit suicide). Since then, I haven't been feeling with panic attacks, nor stress, nor heavily depressed. I feel great!
Tomorrow I will talk to the doctor.... although when I tell him what I did I won't be surprised if he lowers the dose to 25 mg (after the tongue lashing of been tinkering with the dose without telling him
I feel I still have a long way to go... I am far from good... too far (I am still very depressed)
Vicky had told me a few days ago "You are too arrogant, and proud of yourself and have too big an ego to give up. You either get better or die trying". I am applying the philosophy.
Keep ya posted guys