Almost 19 years ago, I gave up smoking. I honestly enjoyed smoking....everything about it. I loved opening the pack of fresh cigarettes and taking that cigarette out of the pack. Loved tapping it down and lighting it. And that first inhale. OMG, especially the first one of the day. It was the first thing I did in the morning and the last thing I did at night. And I'd get up once or twice during the night just to have a smoke.
And even after 19 years? I miss smoking. God, I miss smoking. Even now. There are days when I would kill for even one cigarette. The only reason I don't smoke that one cigarette is because one wouldn't be enough. Quitting is the hardest thing I think I ever did and I'd go back in a heartbeat. I can't afford to smoke, financially or physically, but man, there are some days when it's all I can do....even now....not to go out and buy a pack of cigarettes.
This morning, for some reason, it really hit me. That urge. Even now. I know how bad they are, I know how smelly they are, I know, I know, I know. But man.................
Is there anything that you've given up that you really miss doing?
(Now if I could just quit eating)
And even after 19 years? I miss smoking. God, I miss smoking. Even now. There are days when I would kill for even one cigarette. The only reason I don't smoke that one cigarette is because one wouldn't be enough. Quitting is the hardest thing I think I ever did and I'd go back in a heartbeat. I can't afford to smoke, financially or physically, but man, there are some days when it's all I can do....even now....not to go out and buy a pack of cigarettes.
This morning, for some reason, it really hit me. That urge. Even now. I know how bad they are, I know how smelly they are, I know, I know, I know. But man.................
Is there anything that you've given up that you really miss doing?
(Now if I could just quit eating)
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