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It's been a week and 3 days since I let my beautiful girl go. She had breast cancer that the vet said would be aggressive. We said we want to proceed with surgery and get this nasy thing out of her. We brought her back to the vets thinking she was going to have the surgey. Later in the afteroon, we got a call to collect her and said she hasn't had surgery becaue they did tests on her kidneys. We back to the vets to collect her and the vet said her kidney marker was 22, double than what it should be and that they can't proceed with surgery as she is likely to get kidney failure during the op and not make it. She was an IV all day. The vet told us to bring her back home for the night and then bring her back for further blood tests. Whatever they had her on that day, was working. Her kidney marker went from 22 to 18! She responded well. But the vet said it was still too high to operate and Muffy didn't have much time left with the tumor to be put on a kidney diet. Without surgery, she estimated 1-3 weeks. They hadn't even done xrays or biopsy but could just tell by looking at the mass. We was told the best option at this point is euthanasia. She said we can take her home to say our goodbyes or do it there and then. As much as I wanted to get out of there ASAP and cuddle her at home, I knew it would be harder, having to endure another taxi fare back knowing we were taking her to die. So we did it that day.
I feel so guilty for the decision we made. I feel guilty for not bringing her home to have one more day of cuddles and for her to live like a Queen and I feel guilty for not fighting harder for her. I keep thinking, what if she had another day on IV and they got her kidney marker down even more. What if we proceeded with surgery anyway, took a risk and she survived. All I can see is her scared and confused face before they gave her that injection. I feel like we have let her down and I am truly heartbroken. She was 13 years and 5 months.
She has a sister from the same litter and she is in good health, I absolutely adore her but at the same time I even feel guitly for continuing on and loving her. I know it might sound silly but I don't want Muffy thinking we have forgotton about her. We also have another cat who is 8 and is biologically unrelated. They both know Muffy isn't here with us anymore.
Anyway, I have attached some pictures of my girl and the memorial we have set up for her.
Rest in peace sweet heart, I love you so so much. Either mum or me will meet you at the rainbow bridge. xxx
I feel so guilty for the decision we made. I feel guilty for not bringing her home to have one more day of cuddles and for her to live like a Queen and I feel guilty for not fighting harder for her. I keep thinking, what if she had another day on IV and they got her kidney marker down even more. What if we proceeded with surgery anyway, took a risk and she survived. All I can see is her scared and confused face before they gave her that injection. I feel like we have let her down and I am truly heartbroken. She was 13 years and 5 months.
She has a sister from the same litter and she is in good health, I absolutely adore her but at the same time I even feel guitly for continuing on and loving her. I know it might sound silly but I don't want Muffy thinking we have forgotton about her. We also have another cat who is 8 and is biologically unrelated. They both know Muffy isn't here with us anymore.
Anyway, I have attached some pictures of my girl and the memorial we have set up for her.
Rest in peace sweet heart, I love you so so much. Either mum or me will meet you at the rainbow bridge. xxx
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