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- Jan 31, 2014
I am so sorry to hear this terrible news, about your Mao,... T trishia42Mao started having more a bit more difficulty breathing last when we were discussing if we should bring him in. Then he went upstairs and started breathing open-mouth. We rushed him to the ER vet and they put him in the oxygen cage. X-ray revealed pleural effusion (fluid outside the lungs) and blood test confirmed heart disease/failure.
He spent the night in the oxygen cage and was given furosemide doses all night (since his creatinine value was now actually just in the upper normal range). Although his breathing seemed to stabilize within the oxygen cage, if they took him out of it, it would go up again which would seem to indicate the furosemide is not working. Furosemide does not tend to work very well for fluid outside the lungs; it is usually better for fluid inside the lungs.
I am absolutely heartbroken and destroyed. I'm mad, I'm defeated - all of the last week was in vain. Yesterday he got so much better; he ate a full 250 calories on his on, he wanted to go outside, he moved around and cuddled with us - it seemed we were really turning a corned on the pancreatitis. The pain and anger I feel right now I can't even. We have an appointment this evening to help him cross over; I always wanted him to cross over here at home - in the place that had been his whole world since he was just a little kitten and that has now been taken from him since it'll happen in the cold setting of the clinic. He just doesn't deserve this; he didn't deserve any of this. He won't eat in the clinic; I left my vest with him last night and today we dropped off some of his favourite food and his favourite mat so that he can lay on something comforting and familiar in his final hours.
The only good thing is that Mao was able to come home, and spend those extra days with you, to cuddle, purr, and sleep in his own place. I just cannot understand how everything went so fast, and took such downturns.
It's good that you were able to leave your vest with Mao, and also able to drop off some of his favorite food and mat.
Mao knows that everything was tried for him.
He probably would have preferred to pass at home, too, but when our animals are so sick, we often do not have the choice.
If he had an illness, that was slower moving, and causing him to not eat,...then perhaps you could plan for it...but not with this.
When our animals are so sick, and struggling, it probably does not matter to them, in what location they pass.
It's just good that you are able to be with him,...since sometimes people cannot be.
(my sister could never be in the same room when any of our animals passed, she would usually sit in the car, or stay home and say goodbye beforehand. It was too difficult for her.)
I wish that this entire week, could have a 'do-over'...but sadly that's not the way things ever can go.I can't help but feel that although I understand there was an underlying heart condition, that the administration of IV fluids while he was there for three nights earlier this week precipitated these events. When we visited on Monday, I saw the number at 23 mL/min, which would be 552 mL daily and according to things I see on the internet, it seems like too much to me. The vet that was monitoring then say they started at 2x the maintenance volume which they had decreased to 1.5x on Tuesday - it was that afternoon that they halted the fluids due to his breathing. Although the x-ray at that point did not reveal fluids, it's pretty clear it's what had started happening. We were also instructed to give him fluids on Thursday (we were told 100-200), but we only did 50 mL and I still feel terrible about it.
I'm not ready - I don't know how I will handle it tonight at all. My husband is also leaving the country for five days so it'll just be me in our empty house - angry, broken, defeated and just plain broken.
Thank you so much for all the support you have shown me during this past week - it has been the worse of my life and this will surely be the worse day (probably only close to the day we found our April passed away in our home one morning, not even three months ago).
I would be entirely angry and defeated, too, and having all sorts of questions...as to why the heart issue was not picked up sooner.
I don't understand that part at all.
With so many vets, and tests, how could that have been missed.
Unfortunately, for now, you have to concentrate all your Love and Strength on your Mao, and helping him to cross over.
Anger will help you later, but not now.
Now just being there for your Mao, and telling him all the things...that he already knows...will help.
Tell him about how strong and brave he is, how great of a cat, and how when he sees his sister, then they can both act all good, or however they used to act.
This is so unfair, and so very sad.
I wish I had better words, to help,...but sadly I don't
Sending you only Thoughts of Strength, Clarity and Peace.
Sending your Mao...thoughts of Love, and Peace, too.