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I made the decision to put my cat of 16 years to sleep yesterday. She had CKD, and I had been giving her special food, medication, weekly trips to the vet for an anti-nausea injection, and fluids.
She had lost 40% of her body weight over the last few months, from 12 pounds to 7 pounds. She had developed an obsession with water to the point where she wanted the water ran for a moment in the tub, and then as it drained she would hop in and roll in it.
She'd get really, really wet. She also started peeing on the couch multiple times per day, which we ended up protecting with vinyl tablecloths. Every time she peed, we would just change the tablecloth. I think she was doing it because all her litter would clump to her if she got in her box wet, but I'm not sure.
She was still jumping all around, but would sometimes miss or slip, so she would fall. She would sit with us and respond to our touch with purring, but it wasn't as often. She was very restless, couldn't sit in one place for long, and she would take almost an entire minute just to situate herself to sit down, I think she was achy in her paws and maybe arthritis elsewhere, I'm not sure.
She seemed bad, then she seemed better, good days, then bad again, but actually seemed a little better the last few days.
Because she was so back and forth, I can't help but think that I should have held on longer and done more. What if she would have lived for another couple years? And was she actually in pain and suffering? Or is that just something I'm saying to make myself feel better? (Which is not working. I feel horrible and have no idea how people get thru this, and no idea how I'm going to get thru it). I'm worried if I ended her life too soon.
She had lost 40% of her body weight over the last few months, from 12 pounds to 7 pounds. She had developed an obsession with water to the point where she wanted the water ran for a moment in the tub, and then as it drained she would hop in and roll in it.
She'd get really, really wet. She also started peeing on the couch multiple times per day, which we ended up protecting with vinyl tablecloths. Every time she peed, we would just change the tablecloth. I think she was doing it because all her litter would clump to her if she got in her box wet, but I'm not sure.
She was still jumping all around, but would sometimes miss or slip, so she would fall. She would sit with us and respond to our touch with purring, but it wasn't as often. She was very restless, couldn't sit in one place for long, and she would take almost an entire minute just to situate herself to sit down, I think she was achy in her paws and maybe arthritis elsewhere, I'm not sure.
She seemed bad, then she seemed better, good days, then bad again, but actually seemed a little better the last few days.
Because she was so back and forth, I can't help but think that I should have held on longer and done more. What if she would have lived for another couple years? And was she actually in pain and suffering? Or is that just something I'm saying to make myself feel better? (Which is not working. I feel horrible and have no idea how people get thru this, and no idea how I'm going to get thru it). I'm worried if I ended her life too soon.