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Its been a rough year for me. I had to put down my 14 year old jinjo in may, on my birthday. She was having seizures and was suspected to have a brain tumor. I struggled a long time with the guilt. I felt like I should of spent the money for the mri, and a possible brain surgery. But, I had just felt like it would of just made her more miserable, for the low survival rate. I finally felt I was ready for another cat. The kitten needed someone with time on their hands as it was around 3 weeks old and its mommy had been hit by a car. We had almost a week and a half together before she died on sunday. I cried and cried and cried. It brought back the pain of my loss of Jinjo. Gizmo, the kitten, was doing well, then suddenly, wasnt. She died in my arms. I still hear that last sad tiny meow she made on her last breathe. I feel so guilty, I dont know what I did wrong. I read almost everything on the internet about kitten care and did it. These two losses in one year have broken me. I have a 3 year old kitty, Cosmo, who I tell everyday that he cant ever die. Ive truly gotton some comfort reading everyone elses story, and I hope all of us find the comfort we need to recover. Its amazing how the loss of a kitty can hurt so much. Im sorry about bad punctuation. Im a grammar nazi that detests the keyboard on my phone.