i don't know how much more of this stuff I can take. We are now on day 22 of me bleeding. The medicine has not stopped the bleeding but thankfully no pain at the moment. At this point I have no doctor to see. The one my husband thought would help with payments turns out not to be so. You have to pay full price for any visits or what not. But if you happen to need a hysterectomy or some other procedure she'll cut you a break and give you a paper to fill out so that the hospital will not charge you for using their or. Which is nice yes but that does not help me right in the now to get to a doctor to stop the dang bleeding. And I thought thought thought I could get in there this coming payday to see the doctor because rent is not due this coming payday and the first visit is 125. But no dear ole hubby said he wanted to get the phone and cable caught up this payday. I could care less about the phone and cable I won't this bleeding to stop. I can live a month or more with out cable phone or internet but I can not handle much more bleeding.
Plus I am very on edge with all of this. I did not say anything about the hubby wanting to catch up the phone or cable I just left the room and cried. I mean when he could not see out of his eyes come heck or high water we got him to several eye appt to get that taken care of. But now I am on a back burner. But I was becoming so stressed I was on nerve with everyone in the house. Hubby asked why I was so on the edge. I screamed at him. Yes I screamed. I screamed you try bleeding for 20 something days and not being able to stop it. You try bleeding like this and not be able to go to a doctor. Lets see how you feel after that. Yes I felt bad for screaming at him but I am very frustrated and stressed and on edge with all this.
Then to top that off. I am afraid even if it stops within the next few days. My TOM is the 10 of this month what if that starts this cycle all over again. I am scared I have never been through this before ever in my life. I have no idea what to do or where to go. And unfortunately my female members are not much help. All I freaking hear is I have been there. It will pass yada yada yada. None None None of that helps how I feel right now. I feel completely helpless right now with no where to turn.
*****Sorry for this being so long. I love all my family deeply but I have no where to turn to vent my feelings right now. All of this is very hard me to take right now. This is the only place I can vent at. I love my husband deeply and he is a caring person but I think he is stuck in a position of not knowing what to say or do right now either.****
Plus I am very on edge with all of this. I did not say anything about the hubby wanting to catch up the phone or cable I just left the room and cried. I mean when he could not see out of his eyes come heck or high water we got him to several eye appt to get that taken care of. But now I am on a back burner. But I was becoming so stressed I was on nerve with everyone in the house. Hubby asked why I was so on the edge. I screamed at him. Yes I screamed. I screamed you try bleeding for 20 something days and not being able to stop it. You try bleeding like this and not be able to go to a doctor. Lets see how you feel after that. Yes I felt bad for screaming at him but I am very frustrated and stressed and on edge with all this.
Then to top that off. I am afraid even if it stops within the next few days. My TOM is the 10 of this month what if that starts this cycle all over again. I am scared I have never been through this before ever in my life. I have no idea what to do or where to go. And unfortunately my female members are not much help. All I freaking hear is I have been there. It will pass yada yada yada. None None None of that helps how I feel right now. I feel completely helpless right now with no where to turn.
*****Sorry for this being so long. I love all my family deeply but I have no where to turn to vent my feelings right now. All of this is very hard me to take right now. This is the only place I can vent at. I love my husband deeply and he is a caring person but I think he is stuck in a position of not knowing what to say or do right now either.****