I don't even know how to explain it all without rambling... so bear with me?
Ok.
So I went camping with a friend, her boyfriend (which is a friend) and his friend which I had met two or three times prior to the trip.
Anywayyy, make a long story short, myself and my friends boyfriends friend ended up dating I guess by the end of the trip.. that was like the 10th of August.
We see each other every day now.. he can't go one day without seeing me. And one week into the relationship he was telling me he loved me. And now he's saying he wants to marry me and have children with me. That it can wait till I'm ready and all that, but he has had dreams and thinks about it allllll the time.
We've been dating for like 3 weeks.
But then he'll pull stuff like, "You don't love me, you don't care about me, we won't last. Everyone is right." and then we will sit there in silence for an hour and then he's all cuddly and saying that "Nothing will come between us, no one can ever break us up."
I like him... but I don't love him.. not yet. And he gets mad when I don't say it back... but I don't want to hurt him and say that I'm not going to say it until I mean it.
He's told me more than once that he's afraid that I'll leave him and he'll be alone forever. But then he goes and says stuff to purposely make me mad and he knows it, and he pulls the "not gonna work out" thing and tries to guilt trip me.
And I am not on the pill.... I am unsure of the pill. I know people who live by it.. and others who had problems with it. But we do use the proper protection. He's asked me a a couple times if I wanted to get pregnant right now. And I keep asking him why and he never answers. I don't want a kid right now. Especially not this early in a relationship. But I caught him.. he said he had one on and he didn't. And now I'm not sure if I can trust him.
I think he thinks that if I got pregnant that I wouldn't leave him.
I don't think he has any self esteem. He always talks about how he isn't good enough or that I'm too good for him and he doens't know why I am with him. Or that because he has no job, no car, that he sucks and no one would miss him if he died. It gets quite frustrating trying to explain to him otherwise.. and I've just let it go now and don't say anything now, and then he's like "See, I knew you wouldn't care."
I honestly don't know what I'm talking about anymore.
Ok.
So I went camping with a friend, her boyfriend (which is a friend) and his friend which I had met two or three times prior to the trip.
Anywayyy, make a long story short, myself and my friends boyfriends friend ended up dating I guess by the end of the trip.. that was like the 10th of August.
We see each other every day now.. he can't go one day without seeing me. And one week into the relationship he was telling me he loved me. And now he's saying he wants to marry me and have children with me. That it can wait till I'm ready and all that, but he has had dreams and thinks about it allllll the time.
We've been dating for like 3 weeks.
But then he'll pull stuff like, "You don't love me, you don't care about me, we won't last. Everyone is right." and then we will sit there in silence for an hour and then he's all cuddly and saying that "Nothing will come between us, no one can ever break us up."
I like him... but I don't love him.. not yet. And he gets mad when I don't say it back... but I don't want to hurt him and say that I'm not going to say it until I mean it.
He's told me more than once that he's afraid that I'll leave him and he'll be alone forever. But then he goes and says stuff to purposely make me mad and he knows it, and he pulls the "not gonna work out" thing and tries to guilt trip me.
And I am not on the pill.... I am unsure of the pill. I know people who live by it.. and others who had problems with it. But we do use the proper protection. He's asked me a a couple times if I wanted to get pregnant right now. And I keep asking him why and he never answers. I don't want a kid right now. Especially not this early in a relationship. But I caught him.. he said he had one on and he didn't. And now I'm not sure if I can trust him.
I think he thinks that if I got pregnant that I wouldn't leave him.
I don't think he has any self esteem. He always talks about how he isn't good enough or that I'm too good for him and he doens't know why I am with him. Or that because he has no job, no car, that he sucks and no one would miss him if he died. It gets quite frustrating trying to explain to him otherwise.. and I've just let it go now and don't say anything now, and then he's like "See, I knew you wouldn't care."
I honestly don't know what I'm talking about anymore.