Pepper is 12. I adopted her from a local shelter when she was 6. They said she was adopted out and sadly brought back multiple times. I didn't question why. Not long after bringing her home I noticed something was off about her. She had all of the symptoms of feline hyperesthesia syndrome (FHS). At first multiple vets ignored my concerns, but then Pepper started self-mutilating and had to have her tail amputated. Eventually a vet spoke to a well-respected behaviorist who confirmed my concerns. She's now been doing well on gabapentin twice daily and has been for years.
The thing is that even aside from the FHS, she's a difficult cat. Everything I try to do results in scratches. I have so many scars. After years of this, I'm starting to get burned out to the extent that she doesn't provide me joy anymore. I give her all that I have (so much time and money making sure she's healthy and comfortable) and feel like i get treated like crap in return. It's hard for me to be affectionate with a creature who's made my life difficult for so many years. Not too long ago one of her nails was growing into her paw pad. I sedated her with a higher dose of gabapentin and trimmed it. Even sedated with the max dose of gabapentin she still suck her claws in and wouldn't let go. I would love to be able to routinely trim her nails to avoid this in the first place, but doing so results in so much aggression. Biting and scratches that draw blood. She's getting older now, so she doesn't groom herself as well as she used to. I've taken on this role, but as you might expect...I get torn to shreds. I can't do anything without sedating her. I can't take her to the vet without sedating her (the vet's request). I can't brush her without sedating her. I can't clip her mats without sedating her. I can't clean her ears without sedating her. I can barely sedate her without sedating her! And even while sedated, she still doesn't tolerate it completely. I do as much as I can until she starts to scratch and then wait 10 minutes or so.
It's just been so frustrating. She's getting older and doesn't have long and I know it's not her fault, but it's like being in a bad relationship. How am I supposed to love this little thing that wants to destroy me every chance she gets?? And as she gets older, I know she'll need more and more care. She was recently diagnosed with early stage kidney disease, which adds even more care to the ever growing list. *sigh*
The thing is that even aside from the FHS, she's a difficult cat. Everything I try to do results in scratches. I have so many scars. After years of this, I'm starting to get burned out to the extent that she doesn't provide me joy anymore. I give her all that I have (so much time and money making sure she's healthy and comfortable) and feel like i get treated like crap in return. It's hard for me to be affectionate with a creature who's made my life difficult for so many years. Not too long ago one of her nails was growing into her paw pad. I sedated her with a higher dose of gabapentin and trimmed it. Even sedated with the max dose of gabapentin she still suck her claws in and wouldn't let go. I would love to be able to routinely trim her nails to avoid this in the first place, but doing so results in so much aggression. Biting and scratches that draw blood. She's getting older now, so she doesn't groom herself as well as she used to. I've taken on this role, but as you might expect...I get torn to shreds. I can't do anything without sedating her. I can't take her to the vet without sedating her (the vet's request). I can't brush her without sedating her. I can't clip her mats without sedating her. I can't clean her ears without sedating her. I can barely sedate her without sedating her! And even while sedated, she still doesn't tolerate it completely. I do as much as I can until she starts to scratch and then wait 10 minutes or so.
It's just been so frustrating. She's getting older and doesn't have long and I know it's not her fault, but it's like being in a bad relationship. How am I supposed to love this little thing that wants to destroy me every chance she gets?? And as she gets older, I know she'll need more and more care. She was recently diagnosed with early stage kidney disease, which adds even more care to the ever growing list. *sigh*