Today I found out from my mom that my grandmother has 6 months to 2 years to live. The doctor said she was showing every sign of dieing. Her upper part of her heart which supplies blood to the brain kidneys and some other parts is working about 40%. She lost over 59 lbs in a year and she still wont eat. She will sneak her foor to the dogs and make up excueses not ot eat. Im scared fro the fact that I had alwasys told my self that she will live for ever. My grandpa died in Jan. 1999. I couldnt cope with his death so I shut my self out from the world. Cut of all my emotions off and just was dead inside. I know I will be the same. Dead. I was always told to be strong and well the only way I could think of that was to become emotionless. have pretty much succeded in doing so. I just cant come to reality that my grandmother is passing away.
Ashley
Ashley