I'm so sorry for your loss.
Aw sweetie. :touch: My heart aches for you and with tears I say, I completely understand how you both feel and what you are experiencing. The "shrines" are a beautiful place to sit quietly, meditate, feel close and remember all that they taught us - to be more like them is a challenge but for me so worth doing and trying as it gives me strength. I try each and every day as you well know.. :heart2: For now, I can see Shel, I can hold the little bag with his fur, and I talk to him. I say good morning and good night, and I take comfort in his little shrine. I like to honor all the joy he brought to us.