He was the best cat I ever owned. its like a piece on my hart was ripped out. I used to sit on the steps of my laundry room and read the paper with him on my lap.I miss him a lot. I have a hostility for people now. I feel like the world is crap and everyone.EVERYONE is lower then dirt. When I think about my boy I miss him and want to cry bot I really can't. I want to get another Siamese or an Oriental Short hair female but when would it be the right time? can I ever get over my hate for people at large? I know that i'm kind of blowing steam off now. But it just hurts so much.