I don't really have the words to make you hurt any less. Loving a cat is such a personal, yet totally understandable by many, thing that although all of us can totally feel your hurt, we cannot feel EXACTLY what you feel. All we can do is let you know that we hurt that you are hurting and I know that each and every one of us can put ourselves in your shoes. I had a adult cat that got sick and within 48 hours, she was gone and I have never cried nor felt so much pain (both of my parents are dead and I don't want to slight them as I loved them VERY VERY much) as with my Krissi dieing. I was so upset, had to even take couple days off work to mourn. But all that said, please let us all be there for you as I know you will do what the loving mom would do for an adored animal that is terminal and hurting...and although it won't make the pain any less for you, in time you will know you did the loving and unselfish thing for Taffy. God Bless and let us be there for you when and if you ever need.