I have been feeling really down again over the past few days over the loss of my beloved cat Kiaira.
She came into my life when I was a small child and was my companion for over 19 years. I miss her dearly! We battled Kidney disease for two years and in August of 2005 she went into renal failure. We tried everything from oral to injectable medications to keep her as comfortable as possible. In late September, I had to let her go. Although it was the most difficult and painful decision I have ever made, I loved her too much to let her quality of life deteriorate.
At times I can't express how much I miss her, but I know she's in a better place.
I wrote the following tribute for her and I wanted to share it here as I know many of you can relate to what I have been going through. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Dear Kiaira,
I miss you deeply, and there hasnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t been a day since you left this earth that my heart hasnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t ached for your presence. We shared a very special bond, one I will always cherish and hold dear to me. To some, it appeared as though I took care of you over the last 19 years. However, I believe we took care of each other.
When I was a small child and afraid to sleep alone, you would come to me in the night. You would curl up around my head and you wouldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t leave until you knew I was fast asleep. Whenever I was ill with the flu, you would meow for grandma to give me medication to ease my discomfort. If ever I was depressed, whether it was over a broken heart, an altercation with a friend, or over the loss of a loved one, you sensed my sadness and comforted me. Whenever I was lonely, you would lay upon my lap in order to keep me company. You had this way of reading me in a way no other could. You knew me as well as I knew every expression, every detail of your face. You my friend, were the epitome of one of a kind.
You provided me with many valuable gifts throughout our years together. At a very young age, you taught me about companionship, commitment, and most importantly, the beauty of unconditional love. You helped make me the person I am today, and for that, I owe you my eternal gratitude.
Baby girl, I would have given everything, gone to any lengths to have saved you. But renal failure is a battle that cannot be won which angered and hurt me because I was rendered helpless at a time when you needed me most. So as much as it killed me, I had to let you go that night as I loved you too much to allow you to suffer or no longer be able to do the things you loved. I know youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]re in a better place now, and I take comfort in that.
Kiaira, I miss you terribly! I long to touch you, stroke your fur and hold you in my arms once again. I miss your kisses and the way you would gently head butt my forehead. I miss the way you would beg for food at dinner time; especially when we had some sort of seafood dish. I miss the way you would greet me when I arrived home, and I hate that youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]re not here to do so anymore. But most of all, I miss the way you loved me…in that unconditional kind of way.
Oh this house definitely feels empty without you girl, and the nights are now long and lonely. Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s hard living without you because for as long as I can remember, youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve always been there. Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m fighting to get through this; however, I find myself feeling lost most of the time.
But sometimes if I close my eyes, I can still picture you cuddled up in your favourite chair. Youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]re purring and you raise your head once you notice my presence. You jump down and meow as if to say hello as you walk toward me for a belly rub. I stroke your fur and you kiss my forehead as I smile. Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s a time before you were ill, a time when we were both happy, and itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s how I like to remember you.
Until the day we meet again at Rainbow Bridge, you will hold a special place in my heart, a spot in which no other can replace.
Missing you deeply and Loving you Always,
Mommy
She came into my life when I was a small child and was my companion for over 19 years. I miss her dearly! We battled Kidney disease for two years and in August of 2005 she went into renal failure. We tried everything from oral to injectable medications to keep her as comfortable as possible. In late September, I had to let her go. Although it was the most difficult and painful decision I have ever made, I loved her too much to let her quality of life deteriorate.
At times I can't express how much I miss her, but I know she's in a better place.
I wrote the following tribute for her and I wanted to share it here as I know many of you can relate to what I have been going through. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Dear Kiaira,
I miss you deeply, and there hasnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t been a day since you left this earth that my heart hasnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t ached for your presence. We shared a very special bond, one I will always cherish and hold dear to me. To some, it appeared as though I took care of you over the last 19 years. However, I believe we took care of each other.
When I was a small child and afraid to sleep alone, you would come to me in the night. You would curl up around my head and you wouldnâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]t leave until you knew I was fast asleep. Whenever I was ill with the flu, you would meow for grandma to give me medication to ease my discomfort. If ever I was depressed, whether it was over a broken heart, an altercation with a friend, or over the loss of a loved one, you sensed my sadness and comforted me. Whenever I was lonely, you would lay upon my lap in order to keep me company. You had this way of reading me in a way no other could. You knew me as well as I knew every expression, every detail of your face. You my friend, were the epitome of one of a kind.
You provided me with many valuable gifts throughout our years together. At a very young age, you taught me about companionship, commitment, and most importantly, the beauty of unconditional love. You helped make me the person I am today, and for that, I owe you my eternal gratitude.
Baby girl, I would have given everything, gone to any lengths to have saved you. But renal failure is a battle that cannot be won which angered and hurt me because I was rendered helpless at a time when you needed me most. So as much as it killed me, I had to let you go that night as I loved you too much to allow you to suffer or no longer be able to do the things you loved. I know youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]re in a better place now, and I take comfort in that.
Kiaira, I miss you terribly! I long to touch you, stroke your fur and hold you in my arms once again. I miss your kisses and the way you would gently head butt my forehead. I miss the way you would beg for food at dinner time; especially when we had some sort of seafood dish. I miss the way you would greet me when I arrived home, and I hate that youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]re not here to do so anymore. But most of all, I miss the way you loved me…in that unconditional kind of way.
Oh this house definitely feels empty without you girl, and the nights are now long and lonely. Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s hard living without you because for as long as I can remember, youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]ve always been there. Iâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]m fighting to get through this; however, I find myself feeling lost most of the time.
But sometimes if I close my eyes, I can still picture you cuddled up in your favourite chair. Youâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]re purring and you raise your head once you notice my presence. You jump down and meow as if to say hello as you walk toward me for a belly rub. I stroke your fur and you kiss my forehead as I smile. Itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s a time before you were ill, a time when we were both happy, and itâ€[emoji]8482[/emoji]s how I like to remember you.
Until the day we meet again at Rainbow Bridge, you will hold a special place in my heart, a spot in which no other can replace.
Missing you deeply and Loving you Always,
Mommy