In 7th grade I was miserable, everyday I wanted to die and couldn’t find any purpose to keep going. But then my sister brought home two cats, one for me one for her, after that things changed. I had an adorable and energetic kitten who I named Emi and loved with all my heart.
It’s been about 5 years since then and my baby Emi passed a few hours ago from what we believe was cancer, she was too young only 5 years old barely entering cat adulthood.
I’m 18 and Emi has seen me through middle and high school, she was a constant source of comfort and love for me(even if she would always wake me up with her 3am zoomies) I love her with my whole heart because she is my heart. I always thought of her as my best friend, my baby, and my entire world. She was the stars in the sky of my life, shining with light and beauty when everything was dark. I feel broken and a piece of me has now been ripped away. I can never repay Emi for all the joy she gave me. I’ll never hear her meow again, I’ll never feel her climbing over me in the middle of the night, I can never wrap her up in my arms again, and I won’t ever see her eyes sparkle in the sun.
I always thought she’d be there when I got my first apartment, I’d imagined how I would decorate and give her all the cozy cat furniture with spots for her to climb around to her little hearts content, and of course plenty of window areas for her sun bathing catnaps. The future i imagined can’t happen now, at least not with Emi, even if I get another cat Emi will always be my first baby with a special place in my heart and memories.
Maybe if I noticed her symptoms sooner she could’ve lived, I keep thinking about how I could’ve prevented this if I just wasn’t so stupid, I’ve been focusing on work and thought she just had some constipation again like she has had in the past, I thought she’d be better in a week or so and I gave her medication and food for her stomach issues like I have before but I neglected to even check for other potential illnesses. I can never forgive myself, Emi was a truly wonderful soul, she was silly and filled with life and personality she wormed her way into my heart and made a home in there for the rest of time.
I made this account only to post this about Emi, I hope that in this way she can be immortalized and never forgotten because she deserves to be known. Not known for her passing but for just how fantastic of a companion she was, though she wasn’t the most cuddly she always appreciated head scratches and being brushed, she loved her scratching post so much and spent a good portion of her day in her cat tree perch.
Emi was too young to be crossing the rainbow bridge, she just turned 5 years old this October just beginning her life that should’ve continued for years and years. She was supposed to grow up with me and now I’m lost, how can I just move on and go through adulthood without her? A month ago I thought i was finally getting the hang of being 18 and an adult, I finally felt more mature and now it feels like I’m back to being that miserable 7th grader with no purpose.
I’ve lost pets before, one of my family’s dogs died about 3 years ago and another family dog died 3 months ago. But I raised Emi from a kitten, I saw her grow up next to me everyday and now she’s gone and I’m still here without my little star. She always liked to sit by the window and look at the night sky, I hope she can see the stars and planets more clearly now that she’s with them. Emi I’ll love and miss you for the rest of my life, my whole heart you can rest without pain now, I’ll meet you again someday and I promise to give you all the head scratches you want when that day comes. Until then I hope your dreams are as sweet as you were.
(I attached photos of her so everyone can see her cute whiskers and eyes)
It’s been about 5 years since then and my baby Emi passed a few hours ago from what we believe was cancer, she was too young only 5 years old barely entering cat adulthood.
I’m 18 and Emi has seen me through middle and high school, she was a constant source of comfort and love for me(even if she would always wake me up with her 3am zoomies) I love her with my whole heart because she is my heart. I always thought of her as my best friend, my baby, and my entire world. She was the stars in the sky of my life, shining with light and beauty when everything was dark. I feel broken and a piece of me has now been ripped away. I can never repay Emi for all the joy she gave me. I’ll never hear her meow again, I’ll never feel her climbing over me in the middle of the night, I can never wrap her up in my arms again, and I won’t ever see her eyes sparkle in the sun.
I always thought she’d be there when I got my first apartment, I’d imagined how I would decorate and give her all the cozy cat furniture with spots for her to climb around to her little hearts content, and of course plenty of window areas for her sun bathing catnaps. The future i imagined can’t happen now, at least not with Emi, even if I get another cat Emi will always be my first baby with a special place in my heart and memories.
Maybe if I noticed her symptoms sooner she could’ve lived, I keep thinking about how I could’ve prevented this if I just wasn’t so stupid, I’ve been focusing on work and thought she just had some constipation again like she has had in the past, I thought she’d be better in a week or so and I gave her medication and food for her stomach issues like I have before but I neglected to even check for other potential illnesses. I can never forgive myself, Emi was a truly wonderful soul, she was silly and filled with life and personality she wormed her way into my heart and made a home in there for the rest of time.
I made this account only to post this about Emi, I hope that in this way she can be immortalized and never forgotten because she deserves to be known. Not known for her passing but for just how fantastic of a companion she was, though she wasn’t the most cuddly she always appreciated head scratches and being brushed, she loved her scratching post so much and spent a good portion of her day in her cat tree perch.
Emi was too young to be crossing the rainbow bridge, she just turned 5 years old this October just beginning her life that should’ve continued for years and years. She was supposed to grow up with me and now I’m lost, how can I just move on and go through adulthood without her? A month ago I thought i was finally getting the hang of being 18 and an adult, I finally felt more mature and now it feels like I’m back to being that miserable 7th grader with no purpose.
I’ve lost pets before, one of my family’s dogs died about 3 years ago and another family dog died 3 months ago. But I raised Emi from a kitten, I saw her grow up next to me everyday and now she’s gone and I’m still here without my little star. She always liked to sit by the window and look at the night sky, I hope she can see the stars and planets more clearly now that she’s with them. Emi I’ll love and miss you for the rest of my life, my whole heart you can rest without pain now, I’ll meet you again someday and I promise to give you all the head scratches you want when that day comes. Until then I hope your dreams are as sweet as you were.
(I attached photos of her so everyone can see her cute whiskers and eyes)
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sometimes I’ll be happy just drawing, writing, or going about my day and I see these reminders of Emi everywhere, some of her fur still stuck on my jackets, toys she hid under my bed, but mostly I still see her in the corner of my eye and I’ll think for a split second that my baby is here but I always turn to see an either Pluto or an empty space. Pluto is wonderful and a very cuddly kitten whom I already love so much and has given me a lot of comfort in this time, but sometimes it just suddenly hits me that Emi is truly gone and not just out of sight, I can never replicate how it felt to pet her cute face, and no matter how many videos I have of her none of them bring back her loud meowing or soft purr. I still miss her and I know I’ll always miss her for the rest of my life. I’m attaching some new photos of Pluto so y’all can see more of this kitten who’s been nothing but amazing 
