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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    You know it's true. I've always believed in angels and spirits. I read somewhere that cats see spirits. The other night, I think it was Thursday night, after the pain specialist, Maggie (Formally known as Blackmagic) wanted to sit on Hemi's pillow. She stopped on the arm and just stared at the...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    I had a radical deep lobe parotidectomy with a neck dissection. For those of us who don't know what that means is I've had 5 tumors in my parotid gland on the right side of my face. They have already taken out my superficial gland and now they had to take the deep lobe which is basically almost...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    Not just the thread but the board has helped me so much. I miss Hemi everyday but I've been so sick and I think it was the best decision for him. I'm going to be going through radiation and I couldn't give him all of the attention he needed. He had a good life, and he knew when he'd had enough...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    That's a beautiful poem. We're getting better. We went and picked up his paw print. It took me awhile to open the box but i did. His spirit left his chair about 10 days later. That's when he must have felt that I was going to be ok. Now I think his spirit is in my laptop.. not really I just have...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    I feel so guilty now and worry about whether she was in alot of pain and suffered and how depressed she might have been. When my dad would go to work she had to stay in her area in the laundry room all day and that had to be so lonely. I could barely stand it. That was her home there though...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    That is beautiful. Strange coincidence. I have that on a picture beside my mom-in-law who died of cancer 2 years ago in January. I still haven't picked up his paw print, I don't know if that's going to open it all up again or not, We have to go this week though. thanks for sharing though it is...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    I am appauled (sp?} that they wouldn't let you stay with her. Everytime I go to the vet I'm a wreck because I'm scared. They usually let you go in a side or back door and leave the samw way. They usually want you together, it makes it easier for both of you. What they did was took away the...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    Alessandra, losing a pet like you did was harder. I kept Hemi in the house for 2 or 3 years because I was afraid of him going off and dying somewhere and not being able to find him. That haunted me. Every night, morning, whenever we left the house. The first thing I did when coming home was...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    Sure I'd like that. The vet called to say his paw print is ready. I don't know if I can go get it.I've stopped crying all the time and the other cats have stopped looking for him so much. Maggie still looks up from her chair as if to say" you ok up there old man?" We all called him "old Man". I...
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    Something I'd like to share.

    My sister sent me an excerpt from a book by James Van Pragh. "Animals survive death. When animals pass into the world of spirit, they accept their transition very much as a natural occurrence. We could certainly learn from them. I have often been asked, "Where does my loving pet go?" Our...
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    Poor Jack

    I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It just rips your heart out. I'd have rather Hemi died naturally like Jack did thenhave to decide to do it for him. Don't take that the wrong way, Oh God I don't mean that in a cold way but I waited years hoping he'd just die in his sleep, he made it...
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    I hope dogs are welcome here

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is hard but losing one like that is devistating. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Laurie
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    Hi Kim. I still haven't gotten to what I felt at that moment. I don't know if it was peace or just this overwhelming grief. I am glad I was with him instead of Jamie who has always had to stay with the dogs because I just couldn't. I knew I was going to hold Hemi through it all. I even held him...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    The little plaque above Hemi on the wall is God grant me the serenity accept the things I cannot change , courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. It wasn't always there it was a wooden candle holder that my husband made me, I just put it there about a month...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    the other 4 cats knew they weren't allowed on that pillow unless Hemi was sleeping somewhere else. today not one of them would go near it but me. I can still smell him on it. I swear he was born with bad breath. My hubby Jamie says you've got to get over this, it's the best thing for him. I...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    thanks for putting his picture in. that was just yesterday afternoon. I can't type anymore right now. God bles you all Laurie
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    I hope so. I can't stop crying. I know it's best for him but it hurts so much. Here is his picture Much love to all. Laurie
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    God I miss him. I held him really tight all the way there. He didn't want my husband he only wanted me. i held him and talked to himbut I think he went before the needle even got to him. Anyway I told him to look for our dog and he would be in a better place. I told him I loved him 150 times. I...
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    thanks everyone.cancel thaqt I don't know how to add pics.
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    I think it's time and I don't know if I can do it.

    thanks for everything, I'll get back to you all later tonight or tomorrow. thanks so much for making this easier.
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