it was showing online and so i watched it a little bit but started crying so i had to leave the live cast ... its been a rough week for me 

Oh hun I'm so sorry for your loss. I've just messaged you too asking how you've been whilst I was away. Sending hugs![]()
My condolences. Grief is such a lonely thing since we all experience it differently. Take care of yourself and allow yourself to grieve. We are here for you.
My deepest regrets and sincere condolences.We have lost several very close friends this year and it never gets easier.