Hi everyone, I really had to put my feelings down somewhere and thought this site would understand the most. I am a frequent reader but this is my first post. Also, English is not my first language so apologies for any mistakes. Thank you for reading.
Two weeks ago I had to let the love of my life go. Thomas was only three years old, but I raised him from a tiny little man. He came into my life after my first cat passed away of old age, he was gifted to my on my birthday by my parents. At the time I lived far away from my friends and was really lonely, but Thomas was there for me from the beginning. After a really rough year I moved back to where my friends and family lived but I was traumatized by unrelated events. My little man came with me wherever I went, moving from house to house, coming with me in his comfy backpack when I went to stay over at my friend. He was my comfort. I finally moved into my own place a year ago, and of course he came with me. I could finally relax. After work I always hurried home because he hated being alone. I can remember all the times I entered and he came running, purring, rubbing his head on my legs. We'd sit down together, him always on my lap and I'd read or watch a movie. These simple times are the things I miss the most.
The end came so quickly. He lost weight so fast, so sudden. I went to the vet and the results gave me such a shock. Nowhere in my mind could I imagine that this is how it would end. His kidneys were broken, both of them, it already happened once before and I didn't notice it. I was with him every day and I didn't notice him feeling sick. We tried flushing his kidneys in the faint hope we could add a few years to his life, but it didn't work. Two weeks ago I had to say goodbye to the light of my life, Thomas.
Even thought I know it was best for him, it still hurts. It feels like a part of me is missing. Slowly I can think back to our memories together without feeling like my world has ended, slowly I can move on, slowly I will be okay. But for now, I am grieving and broken and the only thing holding me up is that I know he loved me too.
I love you, Thomas. I miss you every single day and will never forget you. Thank you for these beautiful years together.
Two weeks ago I had to let the love of my life go. Thomas was only three years old, but I raised him from a tiny little man. He came into my life after my first cat passed away of old age, he was gifted to my on my birthday by my parents. At the time I lived far away from my friends and was really lonely, but Thomas was there for me from the beginning. After a really rough year I moved back to where my friends and family lived but I was traumatized by unrelated events. My little man came with me wherever I went, moving from house to house, coming with me in his comfy backpack when I went to stay over at my friend. He was my comfort. I finally moved into my own place a year ago, and of course he came with me. I could finally relax. After work I always hurried home because he hated being alone. I can remember all the times I entered and he came running, purring, rubbing his head on my legs. We'd sit down together, him always on my lap and I'd read or watch a movie. These simple times are the things I miss the most.
The end came so quickly. He lost weight so fast, so sudden. I went to the vet and the results gave me such a shock. Nowhere in my mind could I imagine that this is how it would end. His kidneys were broken, both of them, it already happened once before and I didn't notice it. I was with him every day and I didn't notice him feeling sick. We tried flushing his kidneys in the faint hope we could add a few years to his life, but it didn't work. Two weeks ago I had to say goodbye to the light of my life, Thomas.
Even thought I know it was best for him, it still hurts. It feels like a part of me is missing. Slowly I can think back to our memories together without feeling like my world has ended, slowly I can move on, slowly I will be okay. But for now, I am grieving and broken and the only thing holding me up is that I know he loved me too.
I love you, Thomas. I miss you every single day and will never forget you. Thank you for these beautiful years together.