Today my husband and I lost our beloved Brown Kitty after 11 years of life together.
He had been getting treatment for large and small cell lymphoma since Oct 2018 and had recently been noted to be in remission due to a sx to remove a foreign object with no cancer noted during sx. He however then had a 2nd sx (about a month later ) as he was not eating and vet specialists/ us thought it was another foreign object but turned out to be hard fecal matter. In the days following his labs improved/ he was perky with us during visits at the hospital but this morning we got the call he was having a seizure and to come quickly but 3 minutes later were called again to say he had passed.
This is my first animal as an adult making decisions and I don't think I have ever felt this devastated/ sad in my life. Of course I feel guilty, although we truly did everything for him, I feel like maybe we should have let him go before a 2nd sx but if I am honest I think I would have wondered if it was too soon being that he lived far past anyone thought he would with his diagnosis.
I hate that I wasn't there in his last moments.
The entire Med Vet staff in all departments (although he didn't go through all depts) loved him and some staff I had never met before would come say they would go back when he was there for treatment to love on him.
I hurt and my husband hurts so much it feels like the wind has been knocked out of us. We both had to go to work today which was an insult in and of itself.
I just felt like reaching out on this site as I know there are like minded people vs people who wouldn't understand. We are not religious and so don't believe he is 'somewhere'.
Our sweet boy who in the last year of his life liked to take his meals on the counter and of course we let him.
I am so sorry for everyone who has grieved and is grieving because I know the depth of your hurt.
Thank you for reading.
He had been getting treatment for large and small cell lymphoma since Oct 2018 and had recently been noted to be in remission due to a sx to remove a foreign object with no cancer noted during sx. He however then had a 2nd sx (about a month later ) as he was not eating and vet specialists/ us thought it was another foreign object but turned out to be hard fecal matter. In the days following his labs improved/ he was perky with us during visits at the hospital but this morning we got the call he was having a seizure and to come quickly but 3 minutes later were called again to say he had passed.
This is my first animal as an adult making decisions and I don't think I have ever felt this devastated/ sad in my life. Of course I feel guilty, although we truly did everything for him, I feel like maybe we should have let him go before a 2nd sx but if I am honest I think I would have wondered if it was too soon being that he lived far past anyone thought he would with his diagnosis.
I hate that I wasn't there in his last moments.
The entire Med Vet staff in all departments (although he didn't go through all depts) loved him and some staff I had never met before would come say they would go back when he was there for treatment to love on him.
I hurt and my husband hurts so much it feels like the wind has been knocked out of us. We both had to go to work today which was an insult in and of itself.
I just felt like reaching out on this site as I know there are like minded people vs people who wouldn't understand. We are not religious and so don't believe he is 'somewhere'.
Our sweet boy who in the last year of his life liked to take his meals on the counter and of course we let him.
I am so sorry for everyone who has grieved and is grieving because I know the depth of your hurt.
Thank you for reading.