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Hello. I know this is premature to say, but I just took in a stray kitten (maybe 5 weeks old) yesterday and I am having second thoughts. As soon as I saw a post about him and his siblings I immediately jumped at the chance to have my own cat. I bought everything he would need: litter box, bed, food, scratching post and toys. I told my family and friends about him and heading off to pick him up. He was so cute so I took him home to my apartment.
He is not litter box trained since he is still very much a baby. He likes to bit my fingers and toes and cling onto my clothes. But I just love when he looks up at me or headbutts my hand. I get such peace watching him sleep or eat. Petting him is such a lovely feeling. I just have never owned a pet before, let alone a kitten.
I am less than a year from graduating undergrad and have severe depression. Due to the unfortunate circumstances of COVID 19, I am isolated in my apartment. I don't know if I really wanted a kitten or if I just didn't want to be alone anymore. I slept for about 3 hours last night (this night since it is 3 am). I woke up with just an awful anxious feeling. He woke up at the sound of me waking up. So I played with him for an hour to tire him out so he would go back to bed and maybe I would too. Petting him calmed me down, but since he kept biting my fingers and toes I started to question whether or not I was ready to care for him.
I really wanted this to work out because I always start things I never finish but I am really scared. And I feel awful because I already spent over $100 on him and told my family and friends about him so I feel like I'm letting them and him down. But I also have this feeling like something bad is going to happen. Maybe he gets sick and I won't know how to care for him. Maybe my landlord finds out I have him and I get kicked out (there are no pets allowed in my apartment complex). Maybe he hurts me and I will be too afraid of him.
I just don't know what to do. I don't want the woman I got him from to think badly of me if I tell her I need to bring him back to her. I don't want to take him to a shelter where he won't get the attention he deserves. But I also don't want to have so much worry because it is affecting my physical health too. I just need advice or a second opinion.
He is not litter box trained since he is still very much a baby. He likes to bit my fingers and toes and cling onto my clothes. But I just love when he looks up at me or headbutts my hand. I get such peace watching him sleep or eat. Petting him is such a lovely feeling. I just have never owned a pet before, let alone a kitten.
I am less than a year from graduating undergrad and have severe depression. Due to the unfortunate circumstances of COVID 19, I am isolated in my apartment. I don't know if I really wanted a kitten or if I just didn't want to be alone anymore. I slept for about 3 hours last night (this night since it is 3 am). I woke up with just an awful anxious feeling. He woke up at the sound of me waking up. So I played with him for an hour to tire him out so he would go back to bed and maybe I would too. Petting him calmed me down, but since he kept biting my fingers and toes I started to question whether or not I was ready to care for him.
I really wanted this to work out because I always start things I never finish but I am really scared. And I feel awful because I already spent over $100 on him and told my family and friends about him so I feel like I'm letting them and him down. But I also have this feeling like something bad is going to happen. Maybe he gets sick and I won't know how to care for him. Maybe my landlord finds out I have him and I get kicked out (there are no pets allowed in my apartment complex). Maybe he hurts me and I will be too afraid of him.
I just don't know what to do. I don't want the woman I got him from to think badly of me if I tell her I need to bring him back to her. I don't want to take him to a shelter where he won't get the attention he deserves. But I also don't want to have so much worry because it is affecting my physical health too. I just need advice or a second opinion.