My cat Rosie, 7 yrs old, late last night began to meow very loudly so I scooped her up, and i placed her in the bathtub with a towel so she was comfy and secure while I prepared everything to take her into the emergency 24 hr animal hospital, I heard meows coming from in there and I shouted back as I was rushing around the house that I was coming..I was coming. I mean she was fine all day and I figured she was just hyped up and needed to calm down and relax and we'd get to the vet and by then she'd be fine.. but a few mins later once i had everything ready, and not even a min after the last howl she had let out, I burst in the room to retrieve her but she was limp and lifeless and unresponsive. Her tongue hung from her mouth and there was a puddle by her rear. I broke out sobbing. She was one of my babies! I scooped her up and im rubbing her chest and belly to maybe restart her heart or something idk and im panicking and i called to her and begged her but nothing..I knew she was gone and I have two very young children so I thought it unwise and foolish to wake them up and cart us all off to the vet just to have them confirm she was gone...but I couldn't bring myself to fully give up on her and let go yet so I just wrapped her in a nice blanket and put her in my room until I could bury her today. But when i awoke this morning I couldn't bring myself to do it. I couldn't. I kept checking on her petting her, loving her and being there with her just incase she somehow was still alive...but she became so cold and very stiff. Then light pink fluid began to leak from her nose and I thought at the time that that meant I needed to hurry bc she was gone and starting to wither away... and she deserved to be buried with dignity and respect and to be honored and appreciated how she was!! but now I'm like...was i wrong..did that fluid mean she wasn't really dead. Was is shock? Blood clot? Stroke? Paralysis? Did I bury my poor kitty alive? when I went to box her to bury I saw no breaths. She was Hard and cold. Her eyes were not responsive even when trying to close ..nothing at all...Its just so hard to believe she starts meowing and now she is gone? I've finally buried her a few hours ago. made her as comfortable as possible, wrapped her nicely and put her in a big roomy box. had a nice ceremony with my kids and they made some decortations to mark her grave...its just I can't help wondering what if she wasnt really dead. what if there was somethin else I could have done. What if it's my fault she's dead. I'm so heartbroken and it's even harder when you have to be strong for the little ones. Anyone have any info or anything similar happen? not that I won't still be a mess right now anyway. I miss her so much already. Ive literally cried for 24 hrs basically nonstop. She was my kid before my human kids. she was a kitty at the pound. i went with a friend to check out the animals but i swore id never get another pet after my childhood one passed..yet there she was.. sickly and unwanted by anyone. once I saw her I loved her and knew she was perfect and was meant to be mine we were made to be family. She will always be my number one pet and one of my kiddos. Thank you for your time.