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Warning: this will be long. I’m very sleep-deprived and kind of at my wit’s end, so hopefully this doesn’t come off as too rant-y. I just feel very frustrated and helpless with this cat right now and I need some support.
I’ve posted before about Clove, but basically, she is an *extremely* high-energy 1 year old cat who demands constant attention, stimulation, and exercise... more than I am capable of giving her, apparently. I have never seen her exhausted or sated for more than a few minutes, even after playing with her for literal hours. She’s just unbelievably energetic. It’s a very charming trait at times, and she can be very sociable and talkative. But at nighttime, it’s becoming a seriously stressful and draining issue for me to deal with her.
Some caveats:
1. Can’t shut her in another room, because it’s a studio apartment
2. I play with her intensively at least 45-90 min almost every day and interact with her as much as I possibly can when I’m home
3. She has every kind of toy under the sun
4. Already have a second cat, and the two play together 5+ times a day
5. I free-feed so she has food available at all times
6. I use a fan and white noise to muffle her sounds, but I’m a very light sleeper... and also it’s not just the noise that’s the problem, it’s the destructive behaviors
7. Don’t feel comfortable taking her for walks because I live in a very busy city neighborhood with high traffic and she is a skittish cat
8. Multiple cat trees, a huge window, many scratchers, etc...
Let me just recap tonight as an example... I went to bed around 10:30 because I need to wake up at 6am. It is now almost 3:30am as I write this and I have not slept at all. She did the usual walking around and crying for a while. Ignored it. I heard her chewing on my plant and throwing bark everywhere, then meow at me, like, “Can’t you hear me doing something bad???” But I ignored it. She gave up on the plant and started tearing the paper on my cupboards, stopping occasionally to meow at me. Gritted my teeth and ignored it. She was scratching and digging at the plastic storage container for the dry food (even though she has wet food available to eat), wailing, slamming herself into the container, etc... Ignored it. She kept running up the stairs to jump on me, dig at my pillow, eat my hair, and constantly scream in my ear. Ignored it completely and didn’t even open my eyes. She’s running back and forth at top speed, bothering Chilli, chewing on paper, purring while walking on my face, and screaming in my ear. Hours are passing but I’m still patiently ignoring her. The last straw is her literally trying to tear the wallpaper down next to my head, which I can’t ignore. I remove her as calmly as I can and put her down and try to sleep. Now she knows I’m awake, wants to purr and cuddle, but within five minutes starts up some insane behavior again.
I have tried putting her in her carrier for 10-15 minutes for a “timeout”/“reset”, which sometimes helps, but it’s not helping at all with my own sleep deprivation. She takes tiny naps throughout the night but wakes me up every hour. At some point, usually around 8am, she exhausts herself and sleeps.
Emotionally, I am just so burnt out. I love her, but every second that I’m awake, she is anxiously demanding something from me. Even when she sleeps it seems more like defeat than genuine contentment. It feels like a constant guilt-trip reminder that I must be a terrible cat mom because I’m failing to provide her with what she needs... even though I’ve tried so hard in so many ways. I honestly feel pangs of guilt and dread now whenever I hear her stressed-out sounding meow, because I feel so doomed that I can’t ever make her happy. Like trying to fill a bucket with water but the bucket has a hole in it... It’s done a real number on my self-confidence as a pet owner, to constantly feel like I’m failing my cats and not making them happy. I truly don’t know what she needs. I don’t even want her to be more low-maintenance or low-energy per se... I love that she is her own unique self... I just want her to be happy and content. But I don’t know what to do anymore.
I welcome any thoughts or bits of advice, even if it’s just “hang in there.” Sorry for the length of this.
I’ve posted before about Clove, but basically, she is an *extremely* high-energy 1 year old cat who demands constant attention, stimulation, and exercise... more than I am capable of giving her, apparently. I have never seen her exhausted or sated for more than a few minutes, even after playing with her for literal hours. She’s just unbelievably energetic. It’s a very charming trait at times, and she can be very sociable and talkative. But at nighttime, it’s becoming a seriously stressful and draining issue for me to deal with her.
Some caveats:
1. Can’t shut her in another room, because it’s a studio apartment
2. I play with her intensively at least 45-90 min almost every day and interact with her as much as I possibly can when I’m home
3. She has every kind of toy under the sun
4. Already have a second cat, and the two play together 5+ times a day
5. I free-feed so she has food available at all times
6. I use a fan and white noise to muffle her sounds, but I’m a very light sleeper... and also it’s not just the noise that’s the problem, it’s the destructive behaviors
7. Don’t feel comfortable taking her for walks because I live in a very busy city neighborhood with high traffic and she is a skittish cat
8. Multiple cat trees, a huge window, many scratchers, etc...
Let me just recap tonight as an example... I went to bed around 10:30 because I need to wake up at 6am. It is now almost 3:30am as I write this and I have not slept at all. She did the usual walking around and crying for a while. Ignored it. I heard her chewing on my plant and throwing bark everywhere, then meow at me, like, “Can’t you hear me doing something bad???” But I ignored it. She gave up on the plant and started tearing the paper on my cupboards, stopping occasionally to meow at me. Gritted my teeth and ignored it. She was scratching and digging at the plastic storage container for the dry food (even though she has wet food available to eat), wailing, slamming herself into the container, etc... Ignored it. She kept running up the stairs to jump on me, dig at my pillow, eat my hair, and constantly scream in my ear. Ignored it completely and didn’t even open my eyes. She’s running back and forth at top speed, bothering Chilli, chewing on paper, purring while walking on my face, and screaming in my ear. Hours are passing but I’m still patiently ignoring her. The last straw is her literally trying to tear the wallpaper down next to my head, which I can’t ignore. I remove her as calmly as I can and put her down and try to sleep. Now she knows I’m awake, wants to purr and cuddle, but within five minutes starts up some insane behavior again.
I have tried putting her in her carrier for 10-15 minutes for a “timeout”/“reset”, which sometimes helps, but it’s not helping at all with my own sleep deprivation. She takes tiny naps throughout the night but wakes me up every hour. At some point, usually around 8am, she exhausts herself and sleeps.
Emotionally, I am just so burnt out. I love her, but every second that I’m awake, she is anxiously demanding something from me. Even when she sleeps it seems more like defeat than genuine contentment. It feels like a constant guilt-trip reminder that I must be a terrible cat mom because I’m failing to provide her with what she needs... even though I’ve tried so hard in so many ways. I honestly feel pangs of guilt and dread now whenever I hear her stressed-out sounding meow, because I feel so doomed that I can’t ever make her happy. Like trying to fill a bucket with water but the bucket has a hole in it... It’s done a real number on my self-confidence as a pet owner, to constantly feel like I’m failing my cats and not making them happy. I truly don’t know what she needs. I don’t even want her to be more low-maintenance or low-energy per se... I love that she is her own unique self... I just want her to be happy and content. But I don’t know what to do anymore.
I welcome any thoughts or bits of advice, even if it’s just “hang in there.” Sorry for the length of this.