Dear jlc20m, 7 weeks is a very short space in time, and when you have loved, given, and recieved so much from another living creature it takes time to heal. You have lost a lot in recent years, and it is far too easy to be hard on ourselves when we feel in need of support, or for others to judge and question why we feel this need when they have not shared similar experiences. We all need support and love, and I truly hope you feel this as you continue to work through your grief while caring for the others still in your life
I believe that when your heart is ready another creature will find you, and when that happens you will not in any way cast Bella aside: your heart will be open and have room for this new relationship in what ever form it takes. It will be a different relationship and will not take over the place in your heart and mind that you have for Bella. Pain so often causes us to close our hearts to love and warmth out of fear of even greater loss. One day something or someone will help you to overcome this fear. Once you ovecome your fear you will be able to see that giving love to another kitten, or cat, other other living creature, would not be to cast Bella aside but would honour and keep alive everything she loved about you.
I believe that when your heart is ready another creature will find you, and when that happens you will not in any way cast Bella aside: your heart will be open and have room for this new relationship in what ever form it takes. It will be a different relationship and will not take over the place in your heart and mind that you have for Bella. Pain so often causes us to close our hearts to love and warmth out of fear of even greater loss. One day something or someone will help you to overcome this fear. Once you ovecome your fear you will be able to see that giving love to another kitten, or cat, other other living creature, would not be to cast Bella aside but would honour and keep alive everything she loved about you.