Hi put my cat down almost a week ago, this last week i had been at work, getting up in the morning is hard, i look at a few photos of him, and feed my other cat, then i drive to work like a zombie, then at work i am so exhausted. At work i pretend to be happy, i cried infront of my boss on the first day at work, but it feels like everyone was laughing at me, because i cried for my cat. I come home and i sit in the backyard like a zombie feeling guilty that i put my cat down and that he is dead, because of me. I made the choice to put him down. Emotionally its like i am dead, when i am patting my other cat, i feel sad, the kind of sadness that i am not crying anymore, just like heavy chested and empty. And i guess i feel detached like i fear of getting close to my other cat cause i know soon she will pass away as she is older she is 17 years old. And i feel worse doing that, i dont sit with her as much like i did with my other cat , and she mostly likes to sleep as she is old. And at times i feel like what i am doing with her is wrong, like i am bothering her if i want to pat her or maybe i am giving her the wrong food. I dunno i just feel dead, no emotion anymore, she is a beautiful cat, very gentle, caring and fragile. I feel like there is something wrong with me. Like im empty etc. Has anyone felt likes this ?