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Thank you Natalie. I appreciate your kind words. I have really been thinking about her a lot lately since Abby (her mom) is due next week for her litter of babies. I so hope there will be a little white girl. I will never feel like I did the right thing. I just can't justify it. If she even had a 50% chance of getting better or even a 1%, I should have ran with it for a few days. I acted too quickly. None of it was fair..not to her or to me. She didn't understand why she wasn't well and she certainly didn't understand why I didn't leave with her and take her home. She was so lively wanting to leave, like "come on Mom, lets get out of here". That day will always haunt me. I know that is still could have been the end result of her not making it, but not that day. It was the wrong time. I am very sorry you lost your Spencer. The loss of an animal is so hard!
Inkysmom:
Yes, I certainly have had a fair share of animals. I think you had your "sign", which I believe we all get. Whether it's a dream or that feeling of the cat being with you on your bed or near you, I feel like there is a sign given that they are still there in spirit. Last night I swear a couple cats jumped up on the bed with me. There were none in my room! It was so real. I just answered, "ok guys lets go to bed now". This has happened to be several times in the last few years. I know that it had to be Meela after she died. Mostly because she slept with me every night. Most times she slept above my head on a pillow and I didn't realize it until morning. The movement then felt like she was jumping up on the bed and going to that same spot.
I haven't had the dreams like you, but sometimes I do feel she is with me. Surprisingly, it doesn't help a lot with my guilt because I keep thinking that she should be here with me for real - alive.
My biggest crying moment now is visualizing her being at the Rainbow Bridge. But she is sitting there just waiting and watching for me...wondering where I am and why haven't I come yet.
My daughter lost her cat yesterday morning. She called me crying around 9:30am. This is the same daughter who lost her dog to Parvo a few weeks back.
Izzy - Isabelle - Went outside with my granddaughter who is 7. She was on the porch with here when Mya ran in the house to get something. Mya said she ran in and then right back out. When she came out she saw Izzy lying in the road in a pool of blood. She got her parents and they thought at first she got hit by a car. Izzy was hit by a car a few years ago and had to have surgery on her jaw. About 6 months later she would get an abscess around her jaw that would come and go. It drained somehow. The vet told her that as long as it took care of itself, she would be ok.
Lyndsey said that when they looked at her, she had what looked like a blow out around her jaw and neck. She thinks maybe she had a stroke and the abscess exploded. She said she wasn't dirty or appeared to have gotten hit. Plus, no one heard or saw any cars in that time frame.
My heart broke for her and Mya. Izzy slept with Mya every single night and she was a beautiful 2-tone brown with blue eyes. She liked me and could sense I was a cat lover because she always came to me to be pet. Lyn asked me this morning if it was kharma losing pets the way she has...I told her no.
She did get a puppy a couple weeks ago that has helped her with the loss of losing Harley. This one is a girl named Luna. She is so sweet and smart. I will try to get a picture of her and post it.
Inkysmom:
Yes, I certainly have had a fair share of animals. I think you had your "sign", which I believe we all get. Whether it's a dream or that feeling of the cat being with you on your bed or near you, I feel like there is a sign given that they are still there in spirit. Last night I swear a couple cats jumped up on the bed with me. There were none in my room! It was so real. I just answered, "ok guys lets go to bed now". This has happened to be several times in the last few years. I know that it had to be Meela after she died. Mostly because she slept with me every night. Most times she slept above my head on a pillow and I didn't realize it until morning. The movement then felt like she was jumping up on the bed and going to that same spot.
I haven't had the dreams like you, but sometimes I do feel she is with me. Surprisingly, it doesn't help a lot with my guilt because I keep thinking that she should be here with me for real - alive.
My biggest crying moment now is visualizing her being at the Rainbow Bridge. But she is sitting there just waiting and watching for me...wondering where I am and why haven't I come yet.
My daughter lost her cat yesterday morning. She called me crying around 9:30am. This is the same daughter who lost her dog to Parvo a few weeks back.
Izzy - Isabelle - Went outside with my granddaughter who is 7. She was on the porch with here when Mya ran in the house to get something. Mya said she ran in and then right back out. When she came out she saw Izzy lying in the road in a pool of blood. She got her parents and they thought at first she got hit by a car. Izzy was hit by a car a few years ago and had to have surgery on her jaw. About 6 months later she would get an abscess around her jaw that would come and go. It drained somehow. The vet told her that as long as it took care of itself, she would be ok.
Lyndsey said that when they looked at her, she had what looked like a blow out around her jaw and neck. She thinks maybe she had a stroke and the abscess exploded. She said she wasn't dirty or appeared to have gotten hit. Plus, no one heard or saw any cars in that time frame.
My heart broke for her and Mya. Izzy slept with Mya every single night and she was a beautiful 2-tone brown with blue eyes. She liked me and could sense I was a cat lover because she always came to me to be pet. Lyn asked me this morning if it was kharma losing pets the way she has...I told her no.
She did get a puppy a couple weeks ago that has helped her with the loss of losing Harley. This one is a girl named Luna. She is so sweet and smart. I will try to get a picture of her and post it.
Only time will heal the wounds and your heart. Meela knew you loved her, absolutely 
I love it when they start running around raising a ruckus...so cute. I am hoping this little girl I am claiming is healthy and helps me fill this void I have. She will never replace Meela, but she sure can help put a smile back on my face. I have so many hopes and dreams for her already. Crazy? 
