Just wanted to say, I feel you!! I read your posts and am constantly struck by the similarities to our situation. Keep the faith!! I feel despair sometimes and then other times I think, both cats have a nice life and cozy spots to nap in the sunshine and I'll get them together eventually, hahah, but it helps to look at the good parts and how far we've come, from the point where Hawthorne could barely see her for five seconds without reacting and now they can almost live alongside each other (with a wall of gates between, of course) and still be mostly normal. They aren't together yet, but that's definitely progress!! Same with Fluffy and Sapphire.