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Hi everyone I'm talking into my phone I put my cat Lizzy down a few days ago and I'm having a really hard time with it she was almost 20 years old and she had kidney disease but she was eating sparingly less and less drinking water purring sleeping with me at night one day I just knew she was falling over a little bit still able to walk outside to go into the sunlight but I could tell her eyes were different I knew it was time so I was having euthanasia inside my house we sat in the chair I pet her called her all of the nicknames and we told stories for a few minutes then the knock on the door came and the doctor came in sort of abruptly and within a few minutes had a shot in her back I thought I would be able to hold her but he laid her on the table and I was looking into her eyes he shaved her leg and she looked into my eyes I was telling her I loved her and her pupils got very big and I didn't know when she passed and I feel like I should have known because she passed with her eyes open I feel horrible about how abrupt and fast it all happen I wish it could have been different and I just wanted to know if anyone has ever felt not felt but scene a cat die and look in their eyes and watch their pupils get big and their eyes were left open I just feel like this was done improperly I felt like I should have been holding her it's just making me really guilty and sad does anybody have Insight on this?