- Nov 19, 2015
- Emmaus, Pennsylvania
I'll never forget that feeling when I was in the shower and closed the sliding door, I have never felt anxiety like that before and the only way I can describe it is that I felt like I suffocating, almost being buried alive, and it was horrible. And at night the first few nights after he passed, I would lie down in bed and when the lights went out I felt a similar feeling, Deb even asked if I wanted a night light it was that bad! And if a grown man can feel like that, it just shows you how powerful emotions are, how strong the bond is that we developed with these little creatures, it is quite amazing actually. And I know there is a member on here who always says that the cat would never want us to be hurting and feeling bad like that, I forget who it is maybe Di & Bob, and they are right, our cats who have passed would be heartbroken to know we are suffering like that, but we can't help it, if we cared that much in life we grieve equally as much in death, even though we know they don't want us to and we know they are fine now, just fine, it is us who are hurting!les26, I can so relate to the suffocating feeling. I told my husband yesterday that the grief makes me feel claustophobic, because you cannot escape.
I hope you feel a bit better each day, little steps....
And when this horrible allergic reaction happened and we almost lost Sugar a month ago, I found myself saying to myself all of the things that I say on here to try to comfort others, things like "sometimes bad thing like this just happen", and "we never know what life will throw at us", but it was almost like it wasn't sinking in, like I didn't believe it but also because she was still here and after a few days I started to get the feeling that she will pull through and thanks be to God she did, so I guess that was a wake up call to make sure that I enjoy and appreciate her and the others even more and everyday!