I get it. I wanted nothing more than to find them homes. My county is very pro feral and tnr was free. But our shelter is down the street and always full... So no one was interested.I once had a feral kitty my husband rescued from a tree. It was a difficult rescue. She was afraid of anything moving. I placed her in my bedroom and for several days she just hid when I was around, but I knew she was eating and using the litterbox that was in my attached bathroom. After some time I could see her peeking from where she was hiding, but I pretended I was not aware of her presence. Day by day she would inch closer and closer to me, slowly getting her trust. Then one day while I was in bed, she suddenly hopped on my lap at first, then slowly came to my chest, and slept there. I was weeping with joy and it was one of the happiest days of my life. She became the sweetest one I've known. When I finally found her a forever home, I cried for days on end. To this day I still miss her.
I fed for 14 years and i cried so many times! Sometimes when they were totally fine..just left for a few days. I'm glad im finished..(although i fear tge last few were possiblity poisoned ..they all disappeared on sunday nights and all in the summer months!) So added with assuming they suffered horribly will always be extremely difficult.
When her brother (left) ..it was just the two cats for 4 years and losing him was heartbreaking... But she was my priority in getting her inside and safe. Luckily with my small place i only had 1 indoor cat at the time. Im so thankful it all worked out. Again.. Fingers crossed she doesn't go stir crazy.