While I was at school, I saw this little kitten who was curled in a ball, one of the teachers said that she was hurt, I took another glance and she was right! her leg was all bloody and I could see her bone sticking out, the teacher said that a bus or something ran over her leg, and nobody wanted to help her.
I just couldn't leave her laying there, I knew that we had financial difficulties and I had a feeling she might not make it, but as I stroked her head softly, she let out a cry, and I couldn't just leave her like that!
I carried her, and the moment I did. the stench of a rotten meat filled my nose, I knew it came from her leg, one of my friend gave me a box so I could put her in.
The first reason I think she may have died because of me was because , I may have hurt her in the process of putting her in the box, But I could swear I was really careful, and she didn't let out a cry so I thought she was fine.
the second reason was that the bus ride was a little bit bumpy, maybe it caused her more pain? maybe it speeded up the process of her dying?
then I went home, and woke my mum and sister up, we took her inside and mum sanitized her leg, she let out a small cry, we thought we were helping her, we really did, we just didn't know what to do. we tried feeding her some milk and yogurt but she wouldn't eat, we tried squirting water via a syringe into her mouth but she cried when we did so we just stopped.
Mum then called grandma and told her about the situation, and she agreed to bring money so we could go to the vet, and said she wouldn't take long as she lived like 10 minutes away from us, we had her in our lap as we waited for grandma to come, but then she started vomiting blood and passed away immediately after...
I will never forget her face while she was throwing up, or her cries of pain. maybe if I left her there someone else who had enough money to take her to the vet? should I have just left her? maybe she would have lived, or maybe I speeded the process of her death, we later found out that what she had was gangrene and it may have caused an infection to her whole body, maybe if we went to the vet earlier she could have lived, but we didn't have much money that would be enough to treat her, and one of the teachers at the school said she may need an amputation, and no vet would treat her for free, I live in a third world country where humans have problems with medical bills let alone an animal. We had no choice but to wait for grandma to come with some money.
My sister said that at least she died with people around her, but she was too young to suffer like that, she was too small to die like that.
She was later buried at the beach, it was a beautiful and peaceful place, I didn't get a chance to name her, but she deserved a name, I call her Brownie as she resembled a brownie. her fur was brown coloured, and she had beautiful green eyes.
I can't help but think that if things were different maybe she would have lived, if we had enough money at that time, maybe she would have made it, was her death because of my stupidity? did I calculate things wrong? should I have just left her because we didn't have enough money to treat her? I swear I just wanted to help her but I guess if it was someone else tired to help her, she might have had a bigger chance.
I just couldn't leave her laying there, I knew that we had financial difficulties and I had a feeling she might not make it, but as I stroked her head softly, she let out a cry, and I couldn't just leave her like that!
I carried her, and the moment I did. the stench of a rotten meat filled my nose, I knew it came from her leg, one of my friend gave me a box so I could put her in.
The first reason I think she may have died because of me was because , I may have hurt her in the process of putting her in the box, But I could swear I was really careful, and she didn't let out a cry so I thought she was fine.
the second reason was that the bus ride was a little bit bumpy, maybe it caused her more pain? maybe it speeded up the process of her dying?
then I went home, and woke my mum and sister up, we took her inside and mum sanitized her leg, she let out a small cry, we thought we were helping her, we really did, we just didn't know what to do. we tried feeding her some milk and yogurt but she wouldn't eat, we tried squirting water via a syringe into her mouth but she cried when we did so we just stopped.
Mum then called grandma and told her about the situation, and she agreed to bring money so we could go to the vet, and said she wouldn't take long as she lived like 10 minutes away from us, we had her in our lap as we waited for grandma to come, but then she started vomiting blood and passed away immediately after...
I will never forget her face while she was throwing up, or her cries of pain. maybe if I left her there someone else who had enough money to take her to the vet? should I have just left her? maybe she would have lived, or maybe I speeded the process of her death, we later found out that what she had was gangrene and it may have caused an infection to her whole body, maybe if we went to the vet earlier she could have lived, but we didn't have much money that would be enough to treat her, and one of the teachers at the school said she may need an amputation, and no vet would treat her for free, I live in a third world country where humans have problems with medical bills let alone an animal. We had no choice but to wait for grandma to come with some money.
My sister said that at least she died with people around her, but she was too young to suffer like that, she was too small to die like that.
She was later buried at the beach, it was a beautiful and peaceful place, I didn't get a chance to name her, but she deserved a name, I call her Brownie as she resembled a brownie. her fur was brown coloured, and she had beautiful green eyes.
I can't help but think that if things were different maybe she would have lived, if we had enough money at that time, maybe she would have made it, was her death because of my stupidity? did I calculate things wrong? should I have just left her because we didn't have enough money to treat her? I swear I just wanted to help her but I guess if it was someone else tired to help her, she might have had a bigger chance.