- Apr 22, 2017
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I chose to put my kitten to sleep last Monday and I am beside myself. He was a stray who already had a hard beginning and he was given to me to help heal my broken heart for a cat I lost to Kidney failure. Little AJ almost died in January from eating string, but I got him the surgery and he pulled through and started to grow into a beautiful loving and wonderful cat. Something happened last week and I think it was when he and another larger female cat of mine were playing. Ezmirelda loved AJ she groomed him everyday and he loved it. I can almost remember exactly when it happened. Then his stomach started to blow up, he would go poop and he stopped eating. I tried to get to his vet the next day but she was off of work so we suffered all weekend. We went to the emergency room twice that Sunday once at midnight and again at 3 am and he was sent home "stable". I do not like these emergency rooms because when my cat Aries died last June he had died in my arms in the car but they took him and still charged me $700 to try and reseistate my dead cat. They take advantage of you, they don't know your animal and they don't seem to care. I wasn't going to let these people work on my AJ when his vet opened in a few hours. It got much worse he started to cry and he was only 8 months old so his meow was so sweet and helpless. Every bump in the road seemed to hurt him. I forced my way basically in to see his vet and they didn't know what was wrong. I could smell poop on his breathe and he didn't want to be held. They couldn't do an ultrasound and we're going to send me to one of these clinics that would charge $5,000 for surgery and who knows they just are not good. His vet would only charge $1,000, but she couldn't do it that day and she didn't want him to suffer and she didn't think he would have made it. I had been up all night and maybe I wasn't thinking clearly but he was in so much pain I couldn't bear the thought of dragging him across town and making him suffer all night long. They had no idea exactly what had happened but that he was very very sick. I made the choice to let him go and now I know had I asked him to suffer one more night for me he would have. I will never forget holding him while it happened and never miss him so much. I gave up on him. He loved his life, he was so wonderful and such a good cat for all he had been through. I am beside myself, I can barely stand myself for what I did. Had I been rested I would have fought for him. Begged his vet to save him. But I let people tell me what to do and I regret it more than anything. I wish I could take it all back. I hope he forgives me!!! AJ I am so sorry my baby please forgive me!!!