Yesterday one of stray cats that I take care of passed away. I named him Binx. He was such a friendly and loving cat and I really really grew attached to him and my heart is broken. It was a very traumatic experience for him and for me. I noticed that he wasn’t acting normal the night before but just thought his tummy could have been upset from eating something. He wouldn’t eat or drink and he just wanted to lay down. I checked on him a few times throughout the night you could tell he wasn’t feeling good. In the morning I went to feed him and he wouldn’t move at all so I picked him up and tried to see if he would stand up and he couldn’t and just felt limp. After a few minutes he started meowing really loud it didn’t sound normal it sounded terrible like he was screaming and then after he threw up clear liquid. I moved him inside and was trying to get a hold of someone to help me. They were busy with work so it was a while before they got back to me. The vets were called but they didn’t answer they were closed for the thanksgiving holiday so I didn’t know what to do. Finally a family member got back to me and was able to contact the vet directly and get an emergency appointment but this all took about 2 hours and I could tell he was in pain. He would do the screaming meow sound at random times, he was laying on his side and wouldn’t move I could tell he was suffering. I went to the vet and they told me that he was in really bad shape that his body temperature was 93 or 96 I can’t remember I was too emotional. But that it was way too low and they weren’t sure what was wrong with him. He could have gotten hit by a car, internal bleeding, liver disease. They just weren’t sure. His gums were yellow which they said was a sign of shock. They could have tried to figure out the cause and try to treat him but the vet said that It would probably be pretty costly plus the emergency fee and it would be really hard to get his body temperature back to normal, that it’s rare when it gets as low as it was. I wasn’t the person paying for the vet visit but my mom was so I let the vet talk to her over the phone. We made the decision to put him to sleep. I have never had to do that before and I was alone. I just feel so terrible that he was suffering for so long that it’s my fault. I just don’t know what could have happened to him he was so full of life the previous days and it just hurts my heart. I feel terrible that we didn’t save him. I just really don’t know how to handle this.