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Yes, 3 months today... sigh...
I am celebration Artie's life, by lighting a candle, buying a bouquet of flowers for my kitchen table, having a vodka & tonic, and some cheese & crackers...
Artie loved cheese, and he loved to chomp on flowers... that is why I stopped buying them.
I have kept myself busy at the Rescue; this past Saturday afternoon, Sunday night, Tuesday night, and now I am taking another shift on Saturday morning.
I really miss kitty love.. Hopefully, in October, a kitty will 'find' me. I really miss the unconditional love... sigh...
I would start a 3 month thread, but I think I would be bawling/crying intensely... and not making much sense...
I really miss my guy... still have to guilts... having to keep reminding myself of how sick Artie really was... had to stop because I just filled up 2 tissues...
This morning, I found a very very very tiny clump of litter. I was taking some things out of his bathroom vanity, barefoot---getting ready for the renovations. Suddenly, my foot stepped on 'something'.. looked at it, and sure enough.. that is what it was...
Amazing, because I have swept, Swiffered, vacuumed, and washed that floor a couple times... now, today, it finds me... weird...
I miss him.. so much... I miss the cuddles, the talking, the love..
I just miss him...
This is how he was, every single night... on my lap... holding my hand.... for 6 years... from the day I brought him home.. he never left me alone....
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I feel so alone, now.....
I think that little clump of litter was a sign from Artie, that his soul, essence, being, call it what you will, is still with you and it is not something even death can part you. I think it might be his way of saying, he's doing ok and he's around still. Such a sweet picture of you and Artie.