Am I Making the Right Choice?

kittyprincesss

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My sweet girl has not been well. Over the last few days she's declined more and more to the point of she stays laying on our bed. She was doing good up until a few days ago when her meowing and purr changed, and I thought maybe it was just something temporary. I posted on this forum before regarding her decline, she has an internal medicine specialist as her primary doctor. She just seems so weak and frail, she lost even more weight and most likely muscle mass. She has had a few accidents on the bed where she urinated, I think due to the fact that she feels like she doesn't have the energy to get up. She only was prescribed antibiotics and an appetite stimulant yesterday, but I have yet to see any noticeable change. I'm scared but as the days go on she's just going to continue withering...I called a few places that would be willing to do an at home euthanasia..But now I'm lying here with her next to me curled up into my side and I can't help but feel so guilty and regret making that appointment tomorrow. How do I know that I'm not making the wrong choice? I don't want to give up on her, I never would be able to give up on her she's my daughter. I don't want to give up on her, I never would be able to give up on her she's my daughter. As time goes on it seems like shes growing more tired. I just dont want to lose hope...but I don't want her to suffer. What if I made the decision too soon and she gets better again? I feel torn in half.
 

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Only you (and the vet) can make this decision. If she has been declining for a prolonged time without any improvement at all, then you can find peace in knowing she will no longer be suffering. Praying for you ❤
 

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I sent you a PM, my friend, but I will state my opinion here as well. I honestly don't know if it is too soon because nobody seems to know what is wrong with her at the moment. As you said her blood work was good earlier this month, so it could be that she is fighting an infection and is feeling crummy, lethargic, no appetite, wobbly, and weak. I think it is important for her to see the vet as quickly as possible.
 

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I see from doing a search that she suffers from kidney disease :frown:. Did they do bloodwork again yesterday to see if anything changed drastically? I've had three kidney cats, and know that they have good and bad days, and even good and bad weeks, but I also learned to listen to what THEY are telling me. I told each and every one of them that when they were ready, I would help let them go to the bridge, and I meant it even though it broke my heart. And you know what? They did let me know. I simply asked them each time they started acting the way your sweet girl is acting. Most of the time they indicated they were NOT ready, but, of course, one final time for each of them, they let me know that they were tired of the fight and wanted to go. So I made that terrible phone call that you made, and I never regretted it. Why? Because they wanted it. It's as simple as that. And I died a little bit each time.

Go now, and sit with her, and ask her what she wants. Ask her if she's done fighting or she still has some fight in her. You may be surprised to find she will answer you, one way or another. :hugs::vibes::hugs:
 

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In addition to this, it's important to have a diagnosis and check if there is anything that can be done. But I checked your history and if I'm not mistaken your beautiful girl was diagnosed with lymphoma in 2018 and been also having kidney problems, right? A question to the vet and perhaps to a second vet is if there is turn back from the current situation with another treatment to try.
 
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My heart broke today as she took her final breathe at 4:02PM.
She went to sleep peacefully in our home, in her blanket, surrounded by my husband and me.
We had one last sunbath together, with her paws touching my face.
I have lost my soulmate.
 

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When you're ready, we'd love to hear stories and see more pictures of this beautiful girl's life in a Crossing the Bridge tribute thread. After a long struggle with illness, it helps to remember them whole and happy. Don't give her death (or her illness) more meaning than her life. The ifs and shoulds will haunt you for some time. Please go easy on yourself and know they no longer matter. You did your best and she knows that. When you find yourself dwelling on the end, try to focus instead on the middle: the happy and healthy years she shared with you.

May her memory be a blessing unto you!
 
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When you're ready, we'd love to hear stories and see more pictures of this beautiful girl's life in a Crossing the Bridge tribute thread. After a long struggle with illness, it helps to remember them whole and happy. Don't give her death (or her illness) more meaning than her life. The ifs and shoulds will haunt you for some time. Please go easy on yourself and know they no longer matter. You did your best and she knows that. When you find yourself dwelling on the end, try to focus instead on the middle: the happy and healthy years she shared with you.

May her memory be a blessing unto you!
She is now there. I poured my heart out.
 
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