This was originally asking about family advice but it turned into a rant. Sorry.
I'm still in high school and live with my mom, dad, and 3 sisters. My family is extremely dysfunctional, not like physical abuse, but it's just horrible. My dad has anger issues and curses all the time, gets frustrated with us and yells at us. My mom, who is stay at home, tries to take care of everything. She has mental problems like depression, so when my dad is mean like this he can make her cry. In fact, as I'm typing this, she is crying. I am the oldest of 4 children, all girls. My second oldest sister, we'll call her E, she picks out her eyelashes (I did this too, but I stopped, she has been doing this since 3rd grade and she's in 6th grade now), and M, the second youngest (in 3rd grade), I despise. I'll get back to that later. N, the youngest, is 4.
On why I hate M: Though she's the second youngest, she acts younger than N. She throws fits, takes naps, and cries every dang second. Doesn't matter what about. She'll have breakdowns over her homework. My mother treats her as the most important child and I have talked to my mom about this but mother doesn't believe me and won't change anything. E also feels this way, but she still doesn't listen. M is a jerk and bullies me (yes, bullies) and sometimes abuses me. When she was 5 she threw our home phone at me (about the size of a soda can) and when she was 6 she tried to stab me and E's friend with a piece of wood. She broke the door to what used to be her room but is now my room. I had to tape my door back together. She sings and dances. While I'm trying to do homework, she is belting out songs. When I hear the real song, I laugh because she is so bad. She dances like Miley Cyrus at the VMAs and she's more into make up than I am, and I'm a teenage girl. For her birthday, she got a Naked palette. I got clothes. If I ask Maria to stop she'll blow her tongue at me like the child she is. Since she's so young, everyone I tell say it's just a phase, but this has been going on since she went into school. She provokes me until I say something and I am the only one who ever gets in trouble. My dad says I'm giving her mental damage because when I'm trying to do homework I ask her to stop. All of us except N and my dad are on medications.
I also have no one to really talk to. I recently made the decision to stop talking to my best friend of 10 years. She was hanging out with underage alcoholics, cheating on her boyfriend(s) (I think she has 3 now), and failing classes. I tried my best to help her but she pushed me away every time, and I finally realized it wasn't worth it to waste my time anymore or risk getting drawn into drugs like she is. My IRL friend moved to Texas last summer, and he's not usually online. He wants me to start dating again, but I broke up with my 2 year girlfriend in April and I'm not sure I'm over it yet. I can't really say I love her still, but I want to live with her and I consider her my best friend.
We've met in real life once, when I was on vacation. A month later, she broke up with me. I went to counseling for months.
So my only confidantes now are you anonymous people on the internet, my online friends, and cats. My one cat Minnow isn't a lovebug by any means, he loves to attack people randomly. He's about a year and a half old, so I'm hoping he'll mellow out eventually, but I wouldn't get rid of him for the world. The shelter cats are the other friends I have, especially River. She reminds me of me, she's always hiding and scared. I'm the one volunteer who focuses my time with her. I'm the only volunteer/employee to my knowledge that can get her to come out of her hidey holes and rub up against you. She even rolls on her back for me. I love her dearly and wish I could take her home, but I'm already trying to convince my dad to do something about this black cat who wanders around my house sometimes. He didn't even want Minnow. He doesn't like cats, he wants a dog. So does E. But Minnow and River and my ex are my best friends.
I've been having troubles with a certain teacher lately. He hates me. He gives ridiculous homework that is far above our grade level. People have tried to get him kicked out of the school system to no avail. He teaches theology in an English class in a public school (which I don't have a problem with, but I want to be an English teacher and I'd rather learn more about grammar than Adam and Eve, thanks...) which gets him into constant trouble with parents. He'll cuss in class- yesterday he said "You guys need to get your 'act' together" and "Some 'dummy' always messes it up, so I don't say foolproof" and he is very very mean. (The words in quotes were actually cuss words.) The regular class (us) gets more homework than honors or AP.
This is really unorganized. I'm just saying stuff as it comes to my head, sorry.
I like stuff like drawing, but my parents are worried I'm like a satanist or something because the characters I draw tend to be on the darker side. I love to draw stuff like Mogeko characters ( funamusea.com ) especially Idate (is it sad I'm attracted to the orca?). Also, my parents are very Christian, and I'm not sure, but I'm definitely not Christian. I believe in ghosts and stuff, and I find all creation myths ridiculous. I know you can be Christian and believe in ghosts, but I don't think anyone's my savior. This statement will get some people wondering about my sanity, but I know ghosts are real. I don't know why or how, or if everyone is a ghost, but I know there are some. I'm into shows like Ghost Adventures (though I watch GA because it reminds me of when I watched it with the friend who moved to Texas, and because Aaron is a cutie pie!) and that one show with Amy Allen, Dead Files I think? I'm blanking on the name right now. Also I got into Markiplier recently. My favorite YouTubers have to be RoosterTeeth (the entire company, yeah...) and KaptainLexx.
Thanks for listening. Sorry again this was so unorganized. I just wanted to vent. Feel free to comment on anything or ask stuff, but I can't give too much info about my personal life away.
I'm still in high school and live with my mom, dad, and 3 sisters. My family is extremely dysfunctional, not like physical abuse, but it's just horrible. My dad has anger issues and curses all the time, gets frustrated with us and yells at us. My mom, who is stay at home, tries to take care of everything. She has mental problems like depression, so when my dad is mean like this he can make her cry. In fact, as I'm typing this, she is crying. I am the oldest of 4 children, all girls. My second oldest sister, we'll call her E, she picks out her eyelashes (I did this too, but I stopped, she has been doing this since 3rd grade and she's in 6th grade now), and M, the second youngest (in 3rd grade), I despise. I'll get back to that later. N, the youngest, is 4.
On why I hate M: Though she's the second youngest, she acts younger than N. She throws fits, takes naps, and cries every dang second. Doesn't matter what about. She'll have breakdowns over her homework. My mother treats her as the most important child and I have talked to my mom about this but mother doesn't believe me and won't change anything. E also feels this way, but she still doesn't listen. M is a jerk and bullies me (yes, bullies) and sometimes abuses me. When she was 5 she threw our home phone at me (about the size of a soda can) and when she was 6 she tried to stab me and E's friend with a piece of wood. She broke the door to what used to be her room but is now my room. I had to tape my door back together. She sings and dances. While I'm trying to do homework, she is belting out songs. When I hear the real song, I laugh because she is so bad. She dances like Miley Cyrus at the VMAs and she's more into make up than I am, and I'm a teenage girl. For her birthday, she got a Naked palette. I got clothes. If I ask Maria to stop she'll blow her tongue at me like the child she is. Since she's so young, everyone I tell say it's just a phase, but this has been going on since she went into school. She provokes me until I say something and I am the only one who ever gets in trouble. My dad says I'm giving her mental damage because when I'm trying to do homework I ask her to stop. All of us except N and my dad are on medications.
I also have no one to really talk to. I recently made the decision to stop talking to my best friend of 10 years. She was hanging out with underage alcoholics, cheating on her boyfriend(s) (I think she has 3 now), and failing classes. I tried my best to help her but she pushed me away every time, and I finally realized it wasn't worth it to waste my time anymore or risk getting drawn into drugs like she is. My IRL friend moved to Texas last summer, and he's not usually online. He wants me to start dating again, but I broke up with my 2 year girlfriend in April and I'm not sure I'm over it yet. I can't really say I love her still, but I want to live with her and I consider her my best friend.
We've met in real life once, when I was on vacation. A month later, she broke up with me. I went to counseling for months.
So my only confidantes now are you anonymous people on the internet, my online friends, and cats. My one cat Minnow isn't a lovebug by any means, he loves to attack people randomly. He's about a year and a half old, so I'm hoping he'll mellow out eventually, but I wouldn't get rid of him for the world. The shelter cats are the other friends I have, especially River. She reminds me of me, she's always hiding and scared. I'm the one volunteer who focuses my time with her. I'm the only volunteer/employee to my knowledge that can get her to come out of her hidey holes and rub up against you. She even rolls on her back for me. I love her dearly and wish I could take her home, but I'm already trying to convince my dad to do something about this black cat who wanders around my house sometimes. He didn't even want Minnow. He doesn't like cats, he wants a dog. So does E. But Minnow and River and my ex are my best friends.
I've been having troubles with a certain teacher lately. He hates me. He gives ridiculous homework that is far above our grade level. People have tried to get him kicked out of the school system to no avail. He teaches theology in an English class in a public school (which I don't have a problem with, but I want to be an English teacher and I'd rather learn more about grammar than Adam and Eve, thanks...) which gets him into constant trouble with parents. He'll cuss in class- yesterday he said "You guys need to get your 'act' together" and "Some 'dummy' always messes it up, so I don't say foolproof" and he is very very mean. (The words in quotes were actually cuss words.) The regular class (us) gets more homework than honors or AP.
This is really unorganized. I'm just saying stuff as it comes to my head, sorry.
I like stuff like drawing, but my parents are worried I'm like a satanist or something because the characters I draw tend to be on the darker side. I love to draw stuff like Mogeko characters ( funamusea.com ) especially Idate (is it sad I'm attracted to the orca?). Also, my parents are very Christian, and I'm not sure, but I'm definitely not Christian. I believe in ghosts and stuff, and I find all creation myths ridiculous. I know you can be Christian and believe in ghosts, but I don't think anyone's my savior. This statement will get some people wondering about my sanity, but I know ghosts are real. I don't know why or how, or if everyone is a ghost, but I know there are some. I'm into shows like Ghost Adventures (though I watch GA because it reminds me of when I watched it with the friend who moved to Texas, and because Aaron is a cutie pie!) and that one show with Amy Allen, Dead Files I think? I'm blanking on the name right now. Also I got into Markiplier recently. My favorite YouTubers have to be RoosterTeeth (the entire company, yeah...) and KaptainLexx.
Thanks for listening. Sorry again this was so unorganized. I just wanted to vent. Feel free to comment on anything or ask stuff, but I can't give too much info about my personal life away.
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