Hello.
I've joined this site searching for answers that I hope someone might have, or even just to understand if this has happened to anyone else.
On January 31st 2020, after being at work all day I came home to find Totoro (my fur baby) had passed away. When I had left him in the morning we had cuddles, there was no sign that anything was wrong with him. Understandably I was devastated. I'm still devastated and my grief is still so raw.
From the start when I got Tots as a kitten, he often had diarrhea which sometimes had blood in it. It was very distressing for me to see at first and we went back and forth to the vets for numerous tests including feline leukemia, giardia etc he tested positive for giardia and was placed on antibiotics, after a while his stomach got better, but then it happened again and back to the vets. This time they prescribed a special hypoallergenic diet, which seemed to help, but he would still have loose stools every now and again but it was manageable and I was satisfied that the vets had conducted numerous tests including sending off stool samples.
So when I got home on that night to find he had passed away, I was shocked and devastated. There was nothing I could do. But still I tried to open his mouth stupidly thinking I could save him some how, refusing to accept he had died.
We took him to the vet and I requested a post mortem to be conducted as I didn't think I would be able to accept that it wasn't my fault without it. The post mortem revealed his lungs where filled with fluid and blood. But beyond that I wasn't really given any reason as to how this could've happened.
Rightly or wrongly, in some sort of comfort I have been trying to find other people who like me, have lost a cat, specifically British Shorthair suddenly, with little to no explanation. My searching has led me to come across several posts/articles mentioning FIP as a killer amongst young cats. Having read about the condition, symptoms, I think it sounds like Totoro could've had this condition.
I guess I'm just searching for some answers, because I don't know if I'll ever be able to accept his death. I was convinced it was somehow my fault. I miss him so desperately, my home isn't my home anymore. I still cry most days and I'm finding this so difficult. I just want my baby back.
If there is anyone out there that can relate to this, please share your story. Thank you.
I wanted to post a picture of him, but I'm still finding it incredibly painful to look at them.
I've joined this site searching for answers that I hope someone might have, or even just to understand if this has happened to anyone else.
On January 31st 2020, after being at work all day I came home to find Totoro (my fur baby) had passed away. When I had left him in the morning we had cuddles, there was no sign that anything was wrong with him. Understandably I was devastated. I'm still devastated and my grief is still so raw.
From the start when I got Tots as a kitten, he often had diarrhea which sometimes had blood in it. It was very distressing for me to see at first and we went back and forth to the vets for numerous tests including feline leukemia, giardia etc he tested positive for giardia and was placed on antibiotics, after a while his stomach got better, but then it happened again and back to the vets. This time they prescribed a special hypoallergenic diet, which seemed to help, but he would still have loose stools every now and again but it was manageable and I was satisfied that the vets had conducted numerous tests including sending off stool samples.
So when I got home on that night to find he had passed away, I was shocked and devastated. There was nothing I could do. But still I tried to open his mouth stupidly thinking I could save him some how, refusing to accept he had died.
We took him to the vet and I requested a post mortem to be conducted as I didn't think I would be able to accept that it wasn't my fault without it. The post mortem revealed his lungs where filled with fluid and blood. But beyond that I wasn't really given any reason as to how this could've happened.
Rightly or wrongly, in some sort of comfort I have been trying to find other people who like me, have lost a cat, specifically British Shorthair suddenly, with little to no explanation. My searching has led me to come across several posts/articles mentioning FIP as a killer amongst young cats. Having read about the condition, symptoms, I think it sounds like Totoro could've had this condition.
I guess I'm just searching for some answers, because I don't know if I'll ever be able to accept his death. I was convinced it was somehow my fault. I miss him so desperately, my home isn't my home anymore. I still cry most days and I'm finding this so difficult. I just want my baby back.
If there is anyone out there that can relate to this, please share your story. Thank you.
I wanted to post a picture of him, but I'm still finding it incredibly painful to look at them.