My Sweet Lola is at the Rainbow Bridge

She's in heaven or at the rainbow bridge happy and healthy but still missing you. I'm sure she doesn't want you to be sad but is always with you in your heart.
My Inky and Tigey were born in spring too, but since i took them in off the street i never knew their birthdays. Actually Fawn might have been too. See Lola has lots of friends to play with and keep her company.

I know how you feel, I still miss my Kitty everyday... Lola will be living in your heart FOREVER!!! She will never be forgotten!

Eighteen months without you, my sweet Lola

I've been told that it takes a year and a half to start feeling better, but this morning I cried.
I thought I saw you on the step of your ladder to the window sill, like in the photo of my profile, and I looked at you, and I thought I saw you run down the ladder to get to me and be cuddled and kissed. And I cried.

Lola, I will never be the same without you

She was there, her spirit is still there with you and always will be until you meet again one day and all of your pain and sorrow will instantly vanish.

I know my friend, I know......

My friend, What you saw was a message sent to you, from Lola.... She wanted you to know she is ok, and always with you....

Just as I found another ball, of Artie's, on Thursday.. sent to me from above..

There are always signs from our loved ones....

artiemom said:

Just as I found another ball, of Artie's, on Thursday.. sent to me from above..

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This is impressing!

Antonio,

She was popping in to make sure you were ok.


Hugs,

Mia

Lola is forever kissed and cuddled by you, that is her heaven!

I believe it was a litle visit to check on you and let you know she's always with you.

It's two years today.
It's two years without you, two years of an unbearable pain, two years of void, two years of nothing.

Nothing has ever been the same again since you left me, my days are empty, my life is empty.
There's no joy in me, no smiles in my days, no purpose in my life.
I miss your rough meow, your purrs, your gently tapping on my leg to ask the permission to jump on my lap at dinner, your clinginess.

I see you everywhere, I think of you dozens of times a day, I tell others of how wonderful you were and how happy I was when I lived with you.
I tell others what incredible adventures we had, and how you amazed the vets with your unexpected recoveries from the many issues you had.
I cry everyday. I miss you!

Sweet Lola, I love you, I will never forget you, this is a promise!

Oh, Antonia,

My heart is breaking for you as I know how much you loved her and how we all came to love her. She doesn't want you to be sad. She is watching over you always. But now she is at the bridge helping the newbies, teaching them the Millionaire game as you taught her but still your guardian angel.

Sending hugs your way,

Mia

Your beautiful Lola is still with you. She's watching over you, and worried because she wants to see you smiling and joyful again. She wants you to know the health and happiness and beauty that's all around her and she wants you to use your life and gifts until you can be together again. She'll always be with you and always do little surprise checks on you and maybe even play little tricks on you to make you smile and laugh and remember the fun healthy times you might have had.
June 5 will be two years without my beloved Inky and I still miss him dearly, but every time I think of him or post about something I learned from caring for him, I smile remembering how he made all the rules and how he was in charge at all times yet he becsbe so trusting and loving and devoted.

I think he's do happy to be back with his beloved Mandy and Fawn again that he forgets to check up on me because he knows o have past dogs and a past horse and other cats on heaven to look out for me and he's thinking that I'm good and he gets to be with his lost cat loves. Lol
I still miss Inky but feel that he's free and happy. I've had a dream or two over the years.
My beautiful Lovey however has been as clingy since he just died as he was in life. The day he died I kept hearing a cat landing from jumping the baby gate to and from the kitchen to get to the cat food and kitty litter . Only the gate was wide open and my other cat and dog were in the bedroom cuddled with me the whole time. I woke up several times this week feeling cuddles and demanding hugs, cat kisses and the whole constant routine with Lovey for his hugs and cuddles. Only my other cat was curled up in the corner in the bed fast asleep and my dog had left to go to the other room entirely.
Yesterday I was sitting talking on the phone with my friend and a large plastic bag suddenly rustled loudly, then rustled again and fell with a loud crash. My other cat Ruby was next to me asleep quietly but jumped up to go investigate the crash.
My dog nearly had a conniption. He freaked out, bolted off the bed and out of the room and started barking furiously at the front door.
I think Lovey is feeling better now that he's free of his cancer and is having some fun with his brothers being a trickster and visiting and cuddling with me as much as he can.
Your Lola will always be with you. I truly believe that she wants you to find joy and happiness again so she can worry a little less about you.
You devoted so much to her and were the best owner she could have ever wanted. You gave her joy beyond belief and so much loving selfless care. She just wants you to have joy too.

It took me at least 5 excruciating years before I could really say I felt better. I was exactly the same as you, no joy in life, just constantly having that little girl on my mind and seeing in my mind that last day over and over and over again. Wanting everything to be different, praying it to be different, and it never was..... It was like a nightmare that I could not wake up from. There will come a day, when you realize that no matter how much you want it to be different, no matter how much you want to go back, you cannot. It is now a part of your past, and there is nothing you can do to change it.
For Lola, it is over, she is at peace, she is secure in knowing you loved her so very much and knows without a doubt that you did all you could at the time, and that you would have moved the world to make it different. But you are human, you are not perfect, and the world is for the living. Somehow life goes on because we are alive, for us the sun comes up in the morning, day after day, and life moves on. Slow down, pace your self. It is exhausting when things don't make sense, it is like you are replaying every senario for undoing what can't be undone, and that won't ever change. You must slowly begin to face reality that you can't change the past, certain things are NOT in your control. It's time to focus on yourself, be gentle on yourself and set a routine of exercise and doing things you enjoy to focus on something else. You are not alone, let people in. You are NOT an island, there ARE those who love you and want to help in any way they can. You are not as alone as you think. The future can hold happiness and hope if you want it, but first you have to develop the strength to want it, to let it be. It is within you, you were strong enough to care for that precious girl, you have it within you to be strong again. Fighting your way back is a process, there will always be tragedy and setbacks in your life, some much more meaningful than others. Life is life, it is the present, and hope for the future. It will not come if you don't fight for it, if you remain stuck in survival mode and let it carry you on, never resisting, letting death rule your life. You have to teach yourself to fight back. You have to practice self care and compassion for yourself. Learn to love yourself once more, learn that you are worthy and worth loving. Because you, yourself, are capable of love.
Your precious Lola is safe. For her time has no meaning. When you are reunited one day it will be in the blink of an eye for her. Time goes so slow back here for you. She only wants happiness in your life because that is what love is. You have to slowly turn the page on loss and make new memories, make a new life. We, who understand your pain, and that sweet, precious girl, will be with you every step of the way. Neither one of us physically, but none the less beside you, one step in front of the other, one day at a time..........

This is so sad, I feel for you my friend, she was your true cat love, I understand.

Sylvester and I send you love and hugs and support......

Every single creature must return the Kiss of Life at a certain point in time. It is that sad? Why should we think that it is sad to return home? What is sad in being kissed? Is it Love sad? When we look to somebody we love, we do not cry, we smile. When a Creature returns to Eternal Love, what a Creature thinks? Is He/She sad or happy?

We are blessed to forget, however. Imagine we would remember 100% of our feelings. Like filling up a glass of water, no more fresh water could be poured. Then no more fresh feelings.

Headbow, Love is eternal, we all are passing by.

(((((hugs)))))) my dear Antonio..

Anniversaries are so hard to deal with... know that Lola is no longer in pain, and is running free.... painless...

She will always be with you---in your heart..soul...

(((hugs)))

If we did not suffer, we would never know what happiness true love is.....

I understand your feelings all too well and extend my dearest and most sincere sympathies. When my four-legged friends were on their journey to the Bridge I would softly tell them - If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart I'll stay there forever.

Hi Antonio. I feel your pain. It will be 2 years on Thursday when i lost my Meela. the pain is still there, even thought i do feel like I have moved on. I have Ivy and that has helped a lot, but i still find myself apologizing to Meela and crying over what happened. I want to think that she has some influence with God and he & she sent me Ivy to help the hole in my heart.

I think of you often, hoping that things have gotten better in some way for you. I can't imagine ever losing a child since the pain of losing a furry loved hurts this much. I so desperately want to go back in time and do things different. Please know I keep you and all the others who tried to comfort and help me in that first year of heartache. I ask God to help all of us move on and to take care of all of our loved babies who are at the Rainbow Bridge waiting for us.

Finding this board was a Godsend. These people know the pain and you were one of those suffering like I was. Hugs to you and just know I am thinking about you.

inkysmom said:

I think Lovey is feeling better now that he's free of his cancer and is having some fun with his brothers being a trickster and visiting and cuddling with me as much as he can.

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What you told is really amazing, incredible, quite thrilling.
But overall I think you are so lucky to have all those signalse from Lovey, he's still with you... You're lucky indeed!

di and bob said:

It took me at least 5 excruciating years before I could really say I felt better. I was exactly the same as you, no joy in life, just constantly having that little girl on my mind and seeing in my mind that last day over and over and over again.

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Exactly what I am going through and living everyday!

You have to practice self care and compassion for yourself. Learn to love yourself once more, learn that you are worthy and worth loving. Because you, yourself, are capable of love.

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Probably that day will come for me too.
As for now, I don't want to take care of myself, I just wanted care of Lola and Pallina... I wasn't a priority then, I'm not a priority now.