Missing My Scribbles So Much :'(

On Sat Aug 5 we decided it was time. We had tried all that we could, but Scribbles' tumor was too large and intestinal cancer was taking his life. He went downhill very quickly the last 5 days, and the amazing cat we knew and loved was already gone. He barely ate a few bites, lost weight rapidly, and started sitting in the litter box. We resorted to pain meds to try and make him comfortable as we tried a few last things, but even that had no effect.
As hard as it was, we knew we had to do the right thing and end his pain. Driving to the vet that day felt like an impossible journey. I couldn't believe it was actually happening. I sat in a chair and held him on my lap, with my husband there beside me. We told him how much we loved him as we were there with him as he took his last breath. Our vet was so compassionate and cried with us. It was a peaceful passing, and I know it was the right thing. However, the grief and pain is almost unbareable. I haven't cried like that since our last furbaby passed 8 years ago.
The next day we decided to go to our trailer for a couple of nights to get away and camp. We left our 2 remaining cats with ours friends and trusted cat sitters. It was more like a wake as we talked about him and cried off and on.
We came home last night and promised ourselves we wouldn't cry, so we could be strong for the other two. One in particular is obviously sad and missing him terribly. They used to curl up together and groom each other.
Thankfully I am off work until next week, and I'm trying to be strong for them, but there is no hiding the enormous amount of pain. My heart is broken and I feel physically sick. The reminders of him are still everywhere. I feel so lost. I have never felt so much grief. He was my little soulmate.

Of course you grieve, you no longer have your precious boy in your life. But you will never lose the bond you have with him, his love will never leave you, it is eternal. He is a part of your past now, a wonderful part. Use your beautiful memories of him to bring you comfort, as long as you remember him he will be alive in your heart. He will never be far, his new path will parallel yours until the day it once more crosses yours.
These first dark days are the worst, the pain is the sharpest in a new wound. Time is the only thing that helps, it will help you to learn to cope with your pain, it will soften the edges.Don't be afraid to lean on someone for strength, we all need help at times like this, it helps to share the burden of grief. I'll pray for you all, I cry with you because I know what pain is like. Take care......RIP precious Scribbles, you will forever be held in loving hearts and will never be forgotten. Sleep tight, sweet Prince!

Rest you gentle, Scribbles, dream you deep. You were, and are forever, loved.

Let it out, cry if you must, it will help with the grieving process. I am sorry that you lost your little friend, I hope your heart heals a bit more each day.

God Bless......

Scribbles went to the Realm he belongs to. There is only a curtain to the Rainbow world, where Cats live before choosing their Earth human mate. They kiss us for while and then come back there. Pain is only on Earth and cats accepts pain just to teach us what Love is.

The pain will fade in time and only good and happy memories will fill our souls and hearts. How good memories will be in our hearts without pain and sorrow?

Remember Scribbles, so he will be here as well. Love has no end.

Tears and hugs.

Thank you for your kind words of support. The most difficult times are not waking up to his sweet face in the morning (he liked to lay on our chest. He'd alternate to share the love), and coming home to not having him greet us with meows and stretching up to be picked up and cuddled. He will be remembered for as long as I live. Happy to have tons of photos and videos to help keep the memories alive.

Your final act was one of compassion and love. You took away his pain and suffering. I am certain that you being with him when he passed gave him comfort. RIP sweet boy your family will love you always

I am so very sorry for your loss and for what you are going through.

Cry if you must, let it all out.
I'm sorry for your loss..

I'm really sorry for you. I always have some trepidation before I go on this section and I'd rather not hear the sadness but it's a duty to show respect and support I feel. I always have a tissue handy. Sadly most of us will post on here at some future date.

Condolences on Scribbles' departure. You showed pure, true love in releasing him from brutal suffering. How are his little cat buddies doing, now that they realize that he is not returning? Yes, morning cuddles are some of the sweetest joys in this life and I am sure that Scribbles is generous with his cuddles with the angels. Again, condolences on your loss.