Sebastian died in my arms last night

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Sebastian, our 14.5 year-old Chantilly, died in my arms last night. He had had a very hard time these past 3 weeks, back and forth to vets, very constipated and having to stay overnight to get enemas last weekend, just so much stress for the little fella over these weeks, he picked up a very nasty URI last week, he wasn't eating or pooping on his own, we were syringe feeding him and giving him water and meds and vitamins in hopes that he could get over the infection and maybe get strength back, but it just wasn't meant to be, it was his time to leave us. The vet last night said "he must've had something else going on that no one could pick up on", and I think he is right. When I came home, I found him with his left arm tangled in mini-blinds, the vet said they do crazy things at the end, maybe he was trying to climb them to escape the pain or something, but he gave me one last "meow" and I ran over to him, untangled him and held him and within seconds his little head tilted to the left, his leg kicked and he was gone. I raced him down to the vet but it was too late, but it was his time, he wasn't enjoying life much anymore. But as horrible as it was to have to witness that, I realized this morning that he was "hanging on", literally and figuratively until I got home, like he was saying "Pops, you took me to the vets, you and mommy tried your best to save me, I want to die with you here, not alone", and that was his one last final act of love towards us, and I will focus on that, that he survived until I got him free, not the bad part. I brought him home 12 years ago when he appeared at my work, probably a drop off as we get many-I have taken 3 home from work-he lived a very happy life, probably would've been dead years ago outside as he was front declawed, we have no regrets, us or him, we did the best we could for him but it was his time to move on to the next life, and I am very grateful that at least I got the chance to hold him when he passed so he didn't leave this life alone. He was VERY much loved and taken care of, right up until the end.....

Rest in peace, our sweet little "kissy face"  boy, we love you forever and will laugh and play again one day down the line. We love you "See bee" 
 
 

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I am so sorry for your loss, It is nice that you were there with him when he passed, he was being held by someone who loved him and someone he trusted and loved. I am certain that eased his passing. It does seem  like the poor little guy held on long enough to say goodbye. You gave him a wonderful life and a loving home. RIP Sebastian.
 

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Rest in peace, our sweet little "kissy face"  boy, we love you forever and will laugh and play again one day down the line. We love you "See bee" 
 
Again i am so sorry.  I am including my quote that i messaged you below for all to see:

“We who choose to surround ourselves
with lives even more temporary than our
own, live within a fragile circle;
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps,
we would still live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only
certain immortality, never fully
understanding the necessary plan.” ~~ Irving Townsend

And i add this quote too which is so deep and beautiful:

"His soul swooned slowly as he heard the snow falling faintly through

the universe and faintly falling, like the descent of their last end, upon all the living

and the dead." ~~ James Joyce The Dead
 
 

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I'm so sorry for your loss, @Les26. I can tell you loved Sebastian very much.

Your thread caught my attention since I have a Sebastian, too, who is also 14 years old and looks like he's got some Chantilly in him. Maybe they are brothers. 


Rest in peace, dear boy. 
 

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I am literally in tears reading your post. I was expecting that Sebastian will recover. He was waiting for you to say goodbye. You will never forget that those few minutes you held him in your arms. Our pets signal in many ways that their time is up. My deepest condolences.

Dear Sebastian,

You were loved and adored.  You will remain in the hearts of your parents. I will also think of you and other cats saying goodbye to us. I guess you are already at the Rainbow Bridge. If you happen to meet my Jethro say, hello to him.

Goodbye! R.I.P.

Castle Cat (humble and beloved servant of late Jethro)
 

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Oh my goodness I had to stop and wipe tears from my eyes as well...I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Sebastian- it truly sounds like he hung on so he could give you a chance to say goodbye and not that we ever want to say goodbye I am glad he was in your loving arms where he belonged.

Fly free sweet Sebastian and land softly. You were so loved.
 

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The greatest loss is that of a beloved pet, for who but them loved us unconditionally and without predujice.
 

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I'm so sorry for you - hopefully you being there at the end provides you comfort, I'm sure it did to him. 
 

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I, too, think he waited until you were with him, he got your attention and then he was content to be in the arms of the one who loved him so much. Death is inevitable, all living things will experience it one day, it is just so hard to be the one left behind. Please know he loved you so much, and would never want you to be so sad when remembering him, but to celebrate the good times and the happy memories you have and will always carry in your heart. Please accept my sincere condolences, I know the pain you are going through and would not wish it on anyone. Thank you for your wonderful tribute, in this way his memory will be strengthened by becoming known to many, and his star will shine a little brighter on a world made darker by his passing. Take care............RIP sweet Sebastian, you were greatly loved and will be forever held in a loving heart! 
 

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My thoughts go out to you, I am so sorry for your loss, I wish they could stay with is forever.
 

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I am sorry for your loss...it's heartbreaking losing our beloved babies.

Rest in peace dear Sebastian...

(((hugs)))
 
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Just an update, tonight Deb looked up some of Seeb's vet records, and he actually was 15 1/2 not 14 1/2 like we had thought, so he lived an even better life than expected! 

We are healing, doing better than before. There usually is something once a day that will remind you of him and spark the emotions again, but we know that he is fine, and that he was a very sick little fella, sicker than we had imagined, but he is just fine right now....
 

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Just an update, tonight Deb looked up some of Seeb's vet records, and he actually was 15 1/2 not 14 1/2 like we had thought, so he lived an even better life than expected! 

We are healing, doing better than before. There usually is something once a day that will remind you of him and spark the emotions again, but we know that he is fine, and that he was a very sick little fella, sicker than we had imagined, but he is just fine right now....
Sebastian lived a great life with you guys and I am so glad that you are healing and doing better than before.

Yes, there are those days that when we saw something that reminds us of  them and we get very emotional.

I still do...Les, even it's been a year when my girls passed away I still get very emotional.

I guess, it's very normal because we miss them so much....

(((hugs)))
 

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Just an update, tonight Deb looked up some of Seeb's vet records, and he actually was 15 1/2 not 14 1/2 like we had thought, so he lived an even better life than expected! 

We are healing, doing better than before. There usually is something once a day that will remind you of him and spark the emotions again, but we know that he is fine, and that he was a very sick little fella, sicker than we had imagined, but he is just fine right now....
  
  
 
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Sebastian lived a great life with you guys and I am so glad that you are healing and doing better than before.

Yes, there are those days that when we saw something that reminds us of  them and we get very emotional.

I still do...Les, even it's been a year when my girls passed away I still get very emotional.

I guess, it's very normal because we miss them so much....

(((hugs)))
My wife can't hardly even talk about our dog Rusty without getting upset, and he passed in 1995! So very true.....
 
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