For Wilbur - A heavenly gift.

Feralvr said:

Not at all as you will see. Got this one three years ago. Wilbur's actual pawprint size and shading into a heart on my left forearm. I had this one done soon after he became quite ill. He lasted another two years after the tattoo of the heart.

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• feralvr
• Sep 4, 2014

I already have an appt. in two weeks which was made six months ago with a great, great tattoo artist (books up months in advance) to add the lilies surrounding the heart. The collars OMG - are an excellent addition to the little angel on my back left shoulder blade. Larry was thinking I should do something for Henry too and I had NO idea what to do. The collars.......... brilliant.......... with their name tags....... and the sixth resurrection lilly. Five will go with their plumes delicately, daintily and beautifully around the heart tattoo on my arm. The sixth one can go on my back left shoulder adding in the collars/tags, etc. near the small angel. Thank you, Wendy. More than you know.

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I love that idea and it means SO much to me that we mind melded on your tribute plans. Henry and Wilbur, together again forever :heart3:
Hang in there hun, you know we're all here for you. I can't wait to see your finished work. Rest in health and peace, dear Henry.

Lauren,
Laurie told me what happened and I just wanted to say I am so very sorry for your loss
I wish I could be there to give you a tight hug, hold your hand, make you laugh.... Buy you dinner? :lol3:
Awwwwww sweetie.... This is just not fair... Why do they leave us?
Monster Hugs, full of love,
Carolina

Carolina said:

Lauren,
Laurie told me what happened and I just wanted to say I am so very sorry for your loss
I wish I could be there to give you a tight hug, hold your hand, make you laugh.... Buy you dinner? :lol3:
Awwwwww sweetie.... This is just not fair... Why do they leave us?
Monster Hugs, full of love,
Carolina

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:touch: Your message means so very much to me, Carolina, thank you. I am sorry I couldn't see you the last time you were in Chicago but I will count on your for that "free" :lol3: dinner the next go round. Thank you for your love. :heart3: I am having a very, very hard time with this. I can't shake the nerves, the pit in my stomach and the lump in my throat. Just trying to get through these days is not easy right now. My God, how I miss Henry......

p.s. I hope all of your furbabies are doing extremely well. Love back at ya, hun. :heart3:

Feralvr said:

:touch: Your message means so very much to me, Carolina, thank you. I am sorry I couldn't see you the last time you were in Chicago but I will count on your for that "free" :lol3: dinner the next go round. Thank you for your love. :heart3: I am having a very, very hard time with this. I can't shake the nerves, the pit in my stomach and the lump in my throat. Just trying to get through these days is not easy right now. My God, how I miss Henry......

p.s. I hope all of your furbabies are doing extremely well. Love back at ya, hun. :heart3:

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I will be in town in just a few weeks.... Would love a Hug in person... And yes, you can count on that free dinner :lol3:
Hang in there sweetie, he is around looking over you

Henry left this earth and was called home by Wilbur two days ago.

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This says it all, Lauren. As much as you'll miss Henry's physical presence, you know that he's with his brother for eternity and that the love you shared on earth hasn't disappeared. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry to read this, I really didn't think I'd be reading this for a long time. I really thought he was doing better and going to be with you much longer.  I know the time he spent with you was always wonderful. You were a good friend to him & he was a good friend to you. Henry & Wilbur are together again now.   

Oh, @Feralvr. I'm just now seeing this. I'm so, so sorry for the loss of your dear Henry.    In only the short time I've been a member of TCS, I knew how much you loved him. You brought both Wilbur and Henry up in so many discussions that I just knew they were such a big part of your life. My heart goes out to you during this difficult time.

:touch: THANK YOU everyone, from the bottom of my heart for your words of encouragement, support and hope. I am truly at peace and feeling much better about things in general. I have Henry Cremains here at home right next to Wilbur's on my dresser and a bit of a shrine to them and this has brought me unbelievable solace knowing that they are truly together once again. I feel their energy and their loving pushes for me to go on to spread all of the love that they have returned to me ten-fold. :heart3:

I can't believe the pain that I was in, the suffering both physical and emotional over Henry's recent loss BUT somehow, magically, I feel comfort, peace and joy thinking back on the beautiful life those two brother's shared TOGETHER and how extremely blessed I was to be the one, the lucky one, to have shared my life with them, caring for them and loving them. I FEEL it, and I know they are together now and those holes in my heart, well, they feel a bit more filled in. There IS hope and magic, all wrapped up together. :sun: :heart:

Plus - little Hannah. Well, she insists on making me laugh, getting me out to walk her, playing with her, and worming her way into my heart. She is a joy and I am in awe at this whole last year and how these things unfolded and all came together. :Wings: :Shooting Star: :Moon: :sun:

I'm glad to hear you're feeling more at peace.

TRULY, I cannot believe what has transpired the past few days. I cannot believe, am in awe actually, that Wilbur's magic and gifts keep coming from my little spiritual, angel boy.

SO........... a few days back a friend called me who works with a rescue that saves dogs on death row at high kill shelters when their time has run out. Here is his info. from the shelter https://www.petfinder.com/petdetail/30420651/ He is not 8 years old either. Much older than that after seeing him. Anyway, She pleaded with me to take a drive to go and see this older shorty Jack Russell terrier that was due to be euthanized on 10/4 - Saturday. I drove down there on Wednesday, October 1 and met this dear, sweet, old, frightened, timid dog. I almost fell over because he looks very similar to Henry who I just lost one month ago.

I took the dog from it's cage and spend some time outside with him. I had a look in his ears and saw the left ear was extremely infected. I then lifted up his gums and saw severely rotten gums and teeth. I couldn't hold back the tears. The shelter said that the owner's found him as a stray a few years back and kept him in the garage ever since. No vet care, no shots, no neutering, no love, no anything. They said they didn't like him anymore and couldn't afford him. My heart broke for this dog and I was on a mission to get some funding from my vet to help me with costs. I HAD to save this dog. Got home and called Dr. Molly. She called me back almost immediately. God love her. :heart3: She told me if I pay for the neuter, etc., she will do the full dental for FREE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :shocker: I told her that this would be extensive and that I had never seen such bad gums/teeth on any animal ever in my life.

Before vet visit. Took Howard straight from the shelter to the self dog wash as he was filthy and covered in fleas. Went to visit him the next day, October 2, and introduced him to Hannah. They got along fine. I couldn't bring him home that day because Dr. Molly couldn't get me in for an appt. for this old guy till Friday at 3:00 to do bloodwork, fecal check, etc. etc. I slept in a tshirt the night before and brought that with me to the shelter. I brought along Hannah's bed and blanket. Left that in HOWARD'S (his new name and I just thought he looked like a Howard :heart2 cage for the night.

HERE IS THE CRAZY thing, HOWARD was rescued and brought home to us on OCTOBER 3 (Wilbur/Henry's bday :rbheat. And, honestly, since my FIL passed recently and everything else going on I forget the date until that morning when I was filling out the paperwork at the shelter. Seriously, my GOD, I just can't believe it.

Dr. Molly looked at his teeth on that very day and said "WOW, Lauren, this is really, really bad and is close to the worst I have ever seen" OMG the pain Howard must be enduring. So, we did the blookwork. Results will be in on Monday. :cross: :cross: :cross: for his kidneys to be alright so we can go ahead with his neuter/dental on next Wednesday, the 8th. Otherwise, we will give him as much love as we possibly can muster until we decide to set him free. I only pray that he will be healthy enough and strong enough for surgery. He is old. Probably 10 - 12 Dr. Molly says.

Still, I am in utter awe. I gave the gift of life on October 3, two days ago, and I was also given a gift of hope, love on that day. That magical bday of Wilbur/Henry.. Part of me thinks I need Howard just as much as he needs me. Howard's new life begins on October 3 and we only hope that it will be long lived. :cross:

Here is a picture I just took this morning. All clean, beautiful, happy, loved and is my shadow. Just like Henry was. My heart has been touched by an angel. :touch:

Lauren.... I'm just speechless. My heart is bursting! Wilbur and Henry are truly angels, always by your side, making SURE you know it. :heart2: :heart2:

And my heart is also just breaking for poor, poor Howard. Thank goodness Wilbur led you to him.

Amazing turn of events, @Feralvr!    And you are amazing for giving Howard a chance! 

What a story! And he looks so much like Henry

:heart3: to you both. You just know Henry and Wilbur were behind this somehow :-)

So proud and happy for you for saving that sweet, lost soul.

There is just one word for all of this; FATE.

You need Howard just as much as he needs you and you came in to each other's lives at the perfect moment.

Good luck with the neuter and dental.

It really sounds as if you were meant to find Howard!

:touch: :grphug: Thank you all !!!!!!!!! SO good news. Howard's blood work is excellent. Although, now he has kennel cough. He is on a cough pill and a stronger antibiotic. Hopefully he will be better today/tonight so that surgery can happen tomorrow.

I look at this little guy and my heart swells and beats like crazy because I still can't believe he IS HERE. :heart3: Bless his little heart - he is such a fighter and is trying to be such a good boy too. He has only marked twice and was very sorry for each one. He LOVES and I mean LOVES the cats. The cats accepted him immediately and could sense his gentle nature. Will post a picture - a bigger picture once I get some on the computer.

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Today is the one year anniversary of Wilbur's death. A tough year it has been for me trying to deal with life without him. Not one day has gone by that I have not thought of him multiple times each day, missing him. I never knew how very hard it would hit me and for how long but today I am letting go of my grief after all of this time. I spent part of the day in our bedroom where he was set free last year meditating, reminiscing, and just thinking about our life together. Henry, Wilbur's brother, is still with us but not doing so well. Ironically, he became sick shortly after Wilbur died with a few health issues all at once. Henry spent time with me in the bedroom as well today. We talked all about Wilbur together.

It was actually a very enlightening day for me and from this day forward I plan to move past this sadness that has taken a hold of me to a better place of joy, happiness and love. Part of how I came to this was because of something my cousin shared with the family at my uncle's funeral reception a couple of weeks ago.

She said that when you love someone so deeply and they return that love for years and years and then that person passes on the love has to go somewhere. It gets returned to you here on earth - they don't take it with them. You take ALL of that love and then give it outwardly to other's and share that love. It is the circle of Love, as I called it. It continues on forever and ever in honor of that loved one. I loved Wilbur SO very much and he returned that great love back to me. It went round and round for years that we were together. Now I have all of that love returned to me from him - his gift back to me when he left this earth. Now, it is time to spread that love EVERYWHERE.

I WILL always love you, will always miss you, will always remember you, you will be in my heart forever, Wilbur.

But, now I am freeing myself of the heavy heart and grief and will from this day forward, celebrate your life and gift to me.

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I never saw this post, Lauren. That is a beautiful sentiment, I'm all teary eyed.

Wasabipea said:

I never saw this post, Lauren. That is a beautiful sentiment, I'm all teary eyed.

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:touch: Now I am teary eyed. :lol3: It doesn't take much right now. Thank you, Wendy, you are a very sweet person. :heart2:

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I know this thread may seem like it is getting off topic but it really all filters down to Wilbur's magic in my life so I just want to report on Howard's surgery.

Howard had 8 extractions yesterday One of his canine's too. :shame: His left ear is almost completely closed off with scar tissue so his hearing is probably very low in that ear. Dr. Molly said that there is a very tiny hole and that the ear drum is very swollen. He was also neutered. He is on antibiotic and pain meds, of course. Has stitches in his mouth and I just cringe at knowing how painful this must be for him. But, he seems to know that this was all done out of love FOR HIM and he is returning that love tenfold. What a guy.

My vet did the whole dental for FREE so that I could save him from being euthanized at the shelter. The total cost would have been around $1,000.00. I am extremely touched and grateful to her for helping me with Howard. She is a gift and I am extremely blessed to have found her. I am ordering her some artwork for her office as a gift for her charity and compassion. Today I will bring her flowers. aisy Petal:

SO - it looks like Howard will be alright and will have a VERY loving home here with us. He is such a sweet, gentle, kind soul. Very similar to Henry, actually. My heart is overflowing with so much emotion over this, I cannot tell you. Thank you to all who have followed this unbelievable sequence of events. Certainly a story of a lifetime for me and I have to thank my Wilbur for all of the little blessing he is sending my way, the special messages. :heart2: :heart3:

What a precious and brave little dog, and an even more precious vet. Wilbur's magic is a wonderful way to think of this new phase in your life.  

Heaps of positive vibes for Howard that he makes a speedy recovery from all of his surgery and is at home, comfortable and happy very very soon.  

What a sweetheart, both of you and your vet. Herman is a very lucky dog to have been sent your way by Wilbur and Henry, he must be very special.

I hope he continues to heal up nicely, and I'm happy that he had brought joy to your heart and keeps your other loved ones spirits' alive.



Wishing you peace and magical moments