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    Guilty Feeling or Just Grief?

    It's only been 2 years, but I still feel unready to get another cat. I love them so much, but the pain of seeing them age & get sick is still a lot for me right now. I understand your mother's feeling. One day, I hope I'm ready to take on the responsibility again.
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    Guilty Feeling or Just Grief?

    I hate that we all have this feeling, but I find some comfort in the fact that I'm not alone. This site & it's members have taught me so much & given me so much strength throughout the years. Hopefully I can turn my own feelings of grief/guilt into something good in the future.
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    Guilty Feeling or Just Grief?

    I've posted about my dearest cats Asti & Merlot years ago. Asti passed in 2021 & Merlot in 2016. I still find myself having random moments of an aching feeling when I think of them. Usually I focus on the good times, but recently I get pangs of grief and even guilt when I think of them. Maybe...
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    To my best friend, Asti

    I wanted to share a photo of the urns I bought Asti & Merlot. I put fresh flowers out every week & grow Asti's favorite cat grass on the balcony for them as well. I will love them both & miss them forever.
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    To my best friend, Asti

    You came into my life as a birthday present when I was 12 years old. You were so cute & small, also covered in fleas. At first the vet told us you were a girl, but eventually we found that to be untrue. My family & I still laugh about that. You were only my second cat. The first was your...
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    Thank you, everyone. I'm trying not to think too much. My mind keeps going back to his head resting on my shoulder & then my hand when he passed. Trying to keep myself busy as much as I can now.
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    Thank you for saying that. I've been doubting myself. & doubting my decision. I feel like I made the decision too fast. But even on the pain meds I knew he was hurting & having trouble pooping still.. he kept going in & out of the litterbox with no relief. I keep looking at his pictures. He...
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    My best friend passed away today at 3:55 pm. All day today & yesterday, we ran outside & inside depending on what he wanted. I fed him a million treats, cuddled him, & tried to give him whatever he wanted. My boyfriend & I spent the night on the couch where he lied next to us all night, despite...
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    My heart hurts so much. Just thinking that the next time I wake up in the morning, he won't be there. Or he won't greet me when I walk in. Or lie down with me at night. I feel like I'm doubting myself. Because he isn't looking too badly rn. But last night he didn't look very good. Even with the...
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    Just to let everyone know, they have found a mass in Asti's colon.. they also found his lymphnodes are enlarged & there is fluid around his heart/lungs/abdomen.. & the pancreatitis has gotten severe. We are afraid of cancer. The vet thinks thr fluid could be bc the cancer has spread...
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    I was told to do the every other day thing. Thank you. I'm really worried for him. I know I need to get in sooner. It has been really hard even getting ahold of them recently for questions. I don't understand what is going on but I feel like anything affecting his ability to urinate and anemia...
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    Pancreatitis Questions

    Update: So I had to bring Asti to an emergency vet today bc we were unable to get in with my normal vet today. I came home on my lunch break & he meowed in pain when I picked him up & he wouldn't move from his spot. I was afraid he might be blocked or something really serious so I didn't want...
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    Food recommendations: Pancreatitis(possibly caused by IBD), Stones, & CKD

    I agree with you. I'm currently trying purina food. He seems better than the hills. I'm going to try this one long term. I guess sometimes I feel desperate to find something perfect for him to take his pain away. But I could be hurting more than helping.
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    Food recommendations: Pancreatitis(possibly caused by IBD), Stones, & CKD

    So I'm beginning to wonder if there is just something wrong with Royal Canin and Hill's foods.... I've seen a lot of complaints of formula changes that are recent in the past year & last year. This is when all this has started for him. & I keep trying different prescription foods because of his...
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    Food recommendations: Pancreatitis(possibly caused by IBD), Stones, & CKD

    Thanks so much for the info! Today I went back to his rabbit mixed with cd food & he's already doing so much better again. Plus he is eating more normally. I would like to try an only rabbit diet. He really likes it. Thanks for the recommendations. Years ago, I used to read your posts about all...
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