Again I agree with @Verna davies - VENT AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Never apologize for expressing your concerns. Most, if not all of us, have been there. It is usually the initial shock but once we calm down and think it through, it's doable. You will find the patience, strength, finances and whatever is needed because Artie is worth it.
You need to let it out. Your in a stressful situation and we ALL understand
Don't feel bad because of what you're feeling, it's human nature my dear friend.
Hang in there, all will work out.
Again, we're expecting lots of rain down here, don't be surprised if Artie hunkers down. I have a feeling he'll bounce back soon enough. Perhaps you should take his lead and relax as well.
slightly off topic: I was leery at first giving up my land line years ago, but I don't miss it at all. I kept it mostly for my dad, but I have to say, I gained some counter space. LOL and yes the extra 80 a month was not too bad either. I didn't keep the number through cable, kind of wish I did, but I don't miss it. You won't either. Just make sure you keep your cell plugged in at all times, even talking on the phone if you can keep it plugged in and charged you'll be in good shape. We rarely lose cable down here, but I know others who count on that number and have been lost during storms.
Be well... xoxohope